emotastic
I am really needy.
I didn't accomplish everything that I was supposed to accomplish today. One of the tasks I failed to do was lesson plans for the week. That means that I'll be up at 5:30 creating lesson plans because I need to have them on hand for observations, which are very likely since I didn't receive a visit last week. The thought of administration walking in and observing my lesson makes me really nervous. So far, fifth grade seems fine. There are a lot of great things about working with older kids. The kids probably think I'm weird. That's ok, I like weird. heh. It's really funny how the students actually listen to me. The thought of moi as any sort of authority figure is hilarious. I have a chatty group but overall they seem like nice kids. I miss the little ones but after working with the older ones for just a few days I don't think I'd want to go back down to such little kids. I went to happy hour on Friday and it was nice. I felt strangely comfortable. I really like my new school. It's amazing how quick the adaptation has been. grrr I just remembered that the students need name tags. I think I'll just makes some from sentence strips. There's no way the students can stay in their current seating arrangements. The sudden move has created a real issue in terms of inventory. A bunch of students are missing books.
I am craving attention. I really miss having someone care about how my day has been. I want phone calls. I want text messages. I want contact. I want cuteness. I did receive a nice text today. Kept my mind wandering all day. I know what I really need but I don't want it. I need to be alone. The thought is not a comforting one because I love the comfort of commitment. I would be ok with what I have (which is not much) if more contact was involved. I am in need of the top tier of Maslow's triangle! Wait..the second tier. I want to feel needed and necessary. I am not happy. I want too much and in large part am uncertain as to what I want. I used to be so certain. I will let life flow the way it should. There's no point to over planning when life follows its own course. breathe in, breathe out. I'm almost done reading Eldest, that makes me happy. I need to focus my energy on what makes me happy and on being pro-life, pro-my life that is.
Maxi is in town. We need to hit up Panera.
Off to catch some zzzzzzzzz
I didn't accomplish everything that I was supposed to accomplish today. One of the tasks I failed to do was lesson plans for the week. That means that I'll be up at 5:30 creating lesson plans because I need to have them on hand for observations, which are very likely since I didn't receive a visit last week. The thought of administration walking in and observing my lesson makes me really nervous. So far, fifth grade seems fine. There are a lot of great things about working with older kids. The kids probably think I'm weird. That's ok, I like weird. heh. It's really funny how the students actually listen to me. The thought of moi as any sort of authority figure is hilarious. I have a chatty group but overall they seem like nice kids. I miss the little ones but after working with the older ones for just a few days I don't think I'd want to go back down to such little kids. I went to happy hour on Friday and it was nice. I felt strangely comfortable. I really like my new school. It's amazing how quick the adaptation has been. grrr I just remembered that the students need name tags. I think I'll just makes some from sentence strips. There's no way the students can stay in their current seating arrangements. The sudden move has created a real issue in terms of inventory. A bunch of students are missing books.
I am craving attention. I really miss having someone care about how my day has been. I want phone calls. I want text messages. I want contact. I want cuteness. I did receive a nice text today. Kept my mind wandering all day. I know what I really need but I don't want it. I need to be alone. The thought is not a comforting one because I love the comfort of commitment. I would be ok with what I have (which is not much) if more contact was involved. I am in need of the top tier of Maslow's triangle! Wait..the second tier. I want to feel needed and necessary. I am not happy. I want too much and in large part am uncertain as to what I want. I used to be so certain. I will let life flow the way it should. There's no point to over planning when life follows its own course. breathe in, breathe out. I'm almost done reading Eldest, that makes me happy. I need to focus my energy on what makes me happy and on being pro-life, pro-my life that is.
Maxi is in town. We need to hit up Panera.
Off to catch some zzzzzzzzz