birds flyin high you know how i feel
yet another episode of my life is a rendering pit of hopelessness and apathy.
i've come to realizations.
people change and grow apart.
its part of life but it sucks.
life SUCKS.
i hate this.
i hate this town.
i hate the school i go to.
i hate the same routine i go through everyday.
i hate my job.
i basically hate my life.
and no its not ohh shes so emo, such a loser.
i really do.
nothing exciting ever happens anymore
ive been stuck in this house for way too long.
its time for changes, big changes.
changes to different towns, different schools and different friends.
i am going nowhere fast by staying here.
my grades blow.
i have never gotten a report card so horrible before.
but ill just never make it by staying in peekskill
i hate everyone in that school, cept my friends of course.
but what friends do I really have in that school
I mean of course theres my truest and greatest friend Jess Jaroffskeet whom I love to death
but other than her who's really got my back? nobody really. cept Jess H. my 2 true blues. but thats it. people who i thought were my friends dicthed me for "bigger & better things" riiiiight. i think they care for me but they have a pretty shitty way of showing it. and lets see, me & Jason are friends again sorta. neil is neil. nick is chill. the 1 guy i actually like, like his milk with chocolate. so i cant fucks with it.
i feel stuck.
everyday of the week I keep an optimistic view for the weekend
but it always ends up the same.
go to work, come home and somehow think that I am actually going to go out
its just one let down after another and im sick of it.
i need someone. something. but most likely its never going to happen.
nothing ever happens for me, and its just the sad truth.
i've come to realizations.
people change and grow apart.
its part of life but it sucks.
life SUCKS.
i hate this.
i hate this town.
i hate the school i go to.
i hate the same routine i go through everyday.
i hate my job.
i basically hate my life.
and no its not ohh shes so emo, such a loser.
i really do.
nothing exciting ever happens anymore
ive been stuck in this house for way too long.
its time for changes, big changes.
changes to different towns, different schools and different friends.
i am going nowhere fast by staying here.
my grades blow.
i have never gotten a report card so horrible before.
but ill just never make it by staying in peekskill
i hate everyone in that school, cept my friends of course.
but what friends do I really have in that school
I mean of course theres my truest and greatest friend Jess Jaroffskeet whom I love to death
but other than her who's really got my back? nobody really. cept Jess H. my 2 true blues. but thats it. people who i thought were my friends dicthed me for "bigger & better things" riiiiight. i think they care for me but they have a pretty shitty way of showing it. and lets see, me & Jason are friends again sorta. neil is neil. nick is chill. the 1 guy i actually like, like his milk with chocolate. so i cant fucks with it.
i feel stuck.
everyday of the week I keep an optimistic view for the weekend
but it always ends up the same.
go to work, come home and somehow think that I am actually going to go out
its just one let down after another and im sick of it.
i need someone. something. but most likely its never going to happen.
nothing ever happens for me, and its just the sad truth.