Forever alone
I still miss Ron but every time I talk to someone awesome, my heart hurts a bit less.
Before I started dating this douche bag Josh and then Ron, I was talking to a Respiratory therapist in Georgia named JC. He is adorable as all get out, makes fantastic money, has his own paid off BMW (I'm not materialistic at all, but it just shows that he can take care of himself financially), his own place, and he thinks I'm pretty fucking awesome. He's going to come visit me the 25th through the 28th, and he says if things go great between us and we decide to pursue a relationship, he would move down here. What kind of a guy does that?! In amazing guy, that's who.
On the other hand, I started talking to a gorgeous, blue-eyed Jewish guy who lives in Delray Beach, about four hours south east. I think he's a musician or some shit. Jesus Christ, he is fucking gorgeous. I don't know what it is about him but he is just such a fucking doll.
I think that JC has better promise of an actual relationship, especially a long-term relationship. He's ready for kids, marriage, settling down, and that's really what I want. Obviously, it can't be with just anyone, so we'll have to see where and how things go. But I'm actually a little excited, actually really excited, but also really nervous. He's an adult! Most of the guys I date are stuck in their late teens, early 20s... but since JC is 29, he's really not only got his shit together, but he wants to continue moving forward as an adult. I'm not used to that. But that's really what I need.
Aside from that, my organization has been getting a lot of exposure within the community. I have a new client and her life is a real train wreck. I honestly don't know how I'm going to help her get her shit together, or if I'll even be able to but I'm at least going to try my best. This weekend, Adrian's coming over so we can work on our 501(c)(3) again since the IRS returned to us because they said it was incomplete and this will mean that we'll finally be able to apply for and receive not only grants but donations. We are in desperate need of the money from grants and donations, but we're doing the best that we can without them while we have to. But once those grants and donations start rolling in, we are going to explode. Not only my community, but the world will never be the same. Mark my words.
And yes, I know I'm going to receive comments about me needing to be by myself for a while, but I had actually decided that I was going to be by myself and just go to a sperm donor to have more kids in the future, probably next year, by myself until JC and I said talking more seriously and actually made plans for him to come down and I started talking to Matthew, the adorable blue-eyed Jew from Delray Beach. Holy run on sentence!
Who knows? Maybe neither of them will work out and I'll still have to go to the sperm donor next year. While I don't need a man to have a family, it sure would be nice. We will just have to see where things go!
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