Stupidddd
Well I've left Winchester for good. I mean, I'll come back and visit. Duh. But I no longer live there and I certainly no longer go to school there. My last night at Pargo's was bitter sweet. Went over to Shayna's afterwards and had I think a little too much fun. (Jamison!!) Haha. Whatever, I don't work with those nerds anymore. Score! Just kidding guys. I wish I could go back. This is the first Saturday night I haven't worked there in almost 7 months. Except for all those times I asked off for various reasons. But you get what I'm trying to say here. Damn.
My final night in town was last night. It sucked so bad. I wanted to cry my fucking eyes out but we all know that (according my my family at least) crying is a sign of weakness. W/e. I did my own share today on the trip back down. I left Greg's at 6am and got back into the Hill around 11am. Couldn't fall asleep until maybe 2 or 3pm which is weird because I certainly almost fell asleep on the road a few times. Eek. I've kind of drowned all my thoughts into a torrent of metal today. Screaming is pretty and a form of art, I don't care what those other fuckers say.
I don't know how strong I can be now without all my people from Winchester backing me up. Seriously. I've noted some extreme changes in myself since being with them ( and I don't mean the hott hair and new piercings). My point of view has changed and I've been through some tough times. I'm not quite there yet but Sheena has helped me to open up a little bit more about my feelings. It's hard though. Now that she's not with me I don't know if I'll be able to go any further. What's funny is almost everyone is leaving Winchester soon. Jenn is moving to Kernersville (half hour from Greensboro yay!!), Shayna, Heather, and Ryan are all moving to NC too (they're looking into Wilmington), Greg, Larry, and Lindsay are all moving to Arizona together in January. That's kind of crushing. I fucking hate that word by the way. And fuck guys for fucking with my head. Even though I know it's not his fault, nor did he do it on purpose. Whatever. Sheena would tell me to stop being so emo. Haha. Awesome.
I need to call my Greensboro roommate tomorrow so we can go apartment shopping soon. I was supposed to call her today. Or actually yesterday. My bad.
I think I'll shave my legs tomorrow. Lovely. I need a haircut and a dye job. Heck yes.
My final night in town was last night. It sucked so bad. I wanted to cry my fucking eyes out but we all know that (according my my family at least) crying is a sign of weakness. W/e. I did my own share today on the trip back down. I left Greg's at 6am and got back into the Hill around 11am. Couldn't fall asleep until maybe 2 or 3pm which is weird because I certainly almost fell asleep on the road a few times. Eek. I've kind of drowned all my thoughts into a torrent of metal today. Screaming is pretty and a form of art, I don't care what those other fuckers say.
I don't know how strong I can be now without all my people from Winchester backing me up. Seriously. I've noted some extreme changes in myself since being with them ( and I don't mean the hott hair and new piercings). My point of view has changed and I've been through some tough times. I'm not quite there yet but Sheena has helped me to open up a little bit more about my feelings. It's hard though. Now that she's not with me I don't know if I'll be able to go any further. What's funny is almost everyone is leaving Winchester soon. Jenn is moving to Kernersville (half hour from Greensboro yay!!), Shayna, Heather, and Ryan are all moving to NC too (they're looking into Wilmington), Greg, Larry, and Lindsay are all moving to Arizona together in January. That's kind of crushing. I fucking hate that word by the way. And fuck guys for fucking with my head. Even though I know it's not his fault, nor did he do it on purpose. Whatever. Sheena would tell me to stop being so emo. Haha. Awesome.
I need to call my Greensboro roommate tomorrow so we can go apartment shopping soon. I was supposed to call her today. Or actually yesterday. My bad.
I think I'll shave my legs tomorrow. Lovely. I need a haircut and a dye job. Heck yes.