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I can't sleep...fortunately with a few pills I'm feeling better...but I'm just...sad.
Ready for a whole woe is me rant?
I just feel lonely. In my senior year, a time to relish in the last few months with special friends, I'm too busy to see anyone. If I'm not working I'm in class...and thus it takes me four months before I can catch up with friends that I used to see daily. This evening Michelle and I had dinner. Wow, haven't seen her in ages and she used to live next door to me! Char and Jules stopped by my practice room tonight but I was just so tired and so frustrated with my etudes for class to be able to have fun. I *miss* T-Dawg. Honestly, I wish we were still roomies. Holly...I have yet to speak with her more than in passing between my next big task. 'Nessa I saw this summer and nary should the two cross. My housemates! I see them whenever I'm actually on campus and that's what...three days out of seven a week?! And then I look back at people who I have left in the past: Piper, Fox, Dick, Kim, Christie, Alison. I have a long, long AIM buddy list of people I never talk to.
Yes, I'm making friends at Rural Metro. Many people request to work with me. I've been asked by many to become permanent partners. But I never see people on a regular basis so I grow close to someone and then I won't see them for a month. Rachelle, Rick, Larry, Shawn, Brian, Justin, Sara...My world is now more focused on Rural Metro. I'm happy there. I feel confidant and I like myself when I'm in uniform. There is purpose and honor in what I'm doing and I'm focused on maintaining these elements. The people are nice and they enjoy my company. I'm surrounded by people who are more like me. Mainly they lack the self-righetous stick up their ass that we find in oh so many places on Roberts campus.
Some argue that I am always with Chas. I guess technically, if you count saying good night and going to sleep "always-with-Chas" you're right. One, maybe two days out of the week we get to see each other more than just passing the other while they sleep.
I just don't know... ~_~
Ready for a whole woe is me rant?
I just feel lonely. In my senior year, a time to relish in the last few months with special friends, I'm too busy to see anyone. If I'm not working I'm in class...and thus it takes me four months before I can catch up with friends that I used to see daily. This evening Michelle and I had dinner. Wow, haven't seen her in ages and she used to live next door to me! Char and Jules stopped by my practice room tonight but I was just so tired and so frustrated with my etudes for class to be able to have fun. I *miss* T-Dawg. Honestly, I wish we were still roomies. Holly...I have yet to speak with her more than in passing between my next big task. 'Nessa I saw this summer and nary should the two cross. My housemates! I see them whenever I'm actually on campus and that's what...three days out of seven a week?! And then I look back at people who I have left in the past: Piper, Fox, Dick, Kim, Christie, Alison. I have a long, long AIM buddy list of people I never talk to.
Yes, I'm making friends at Rural Metro. Many people request to work with me. I've been asked by many to become permanent partners. But I never see people on a regular basis so I grow close to someone and then I won't see them for a month. Rachelle, Rick, Larry, Shawn, Brian, Justin, Sara...My world is now more focused on Rural Metro. I'm happy there. I feel confidant and I like myself when I'm in uniform. There is purpose and honor in what I'm doing and I'm focused on maintaining these elements. The people are nice and they enjoy my company. I'm surrounded by people who are more like me. Mainly they lack the self-righetous stick up their ass that we find in oh so many places on Roberts campus.
Some argue that I am always with Chas. I guess technically, if you count saying good night and going to sleep "always-with-Chas" you're right. One, maybe two days out of the week we get to see each other more than just passing the other while they sleep.
I just don't know... ~_~