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Update:
1. Went to party with friends and "not so good" people. Got wasted, had a ball.
2. Got EMT card in mail.
3. Got yelled at again at work. I thought my friends were joking when they told me I was in trouble again. Really I truly did.
4. Heard the rumor that Rural Metro orientation may not be 'til SEPTEMBER. I thought July. I prayed July....calling tomorrow to find out for sure.
5. Talked to friend who took the course with me that is an EMT on the road now...she got me a little nervous.
6. Going out with Darrell, Jeff, Leah, Andy and Shannon tomorrow to two story lazer tag and drinks. Good times will ensue.
And the big thing. The confusing thing.
Rob or Chas.
Rob treats me like no other guy ever has. We have amazing conversations. We open up to each other. He's bought me dinner, cooked me dinner, mixed me drinks, complimented me on nearly every thing from looks to my heart and they are real compliments, greeted me at the door with a glass of wine, and we are going to write to each other while he is away in British Columbia for a month.
Chas...my heart belongs to Chas. God, I love that boy. We talk and have the best conversations of my week, he makes me smile, he's risky and adventurous, full of emotion, he makes me happier than anyone in the world could, and I love him beyond words.
I'm not physically attracted to Rob.
Chas cheated on me with a married woman.
I don't want to play with Rob like Chas plays with me. I don't want Chas jealous, because I know he is still possessive of me. Chas is still deciding whether we will ever be a couple again. I want to wait for that decision, it is very important to me. I would give up forever for one day with Chas. Rob is just too good to me.
...but I love Chas...
1. Went to party with friends and "not so good" people. Got wasted, had a ball.
2. Got EMT card in mail.
3. Got yelled at again at work. I thought my friends were joking when they told me I was in trouble again. Really I truly did.
4. Heard the rumor that Rural Metro orientation may not be 'til SEPTEMBER. I thought July. I prayed July....calling tomorrow to find out for sure.
5. Talked to friend who took the course with me that is an EMT on the road now...she got me a little nervous.
6. Going out with Darrell, Jeff, Leah, Andy and Shannon tomorrow to two story lazer tag and drinks. Good times will ensue.
And the big thing. The confusing thing.
Rob or Chas.
Rob treats me like no other guy ever has. We have amazing conversations. We open up to each other. He's bought me dinner, cooked me dinner, mixed me drinks, complimented me on nearly every thing from looks to my heart and they are real compliments, greeted me at the door with a glass of wine, and we are going to write to each other while he is away in British Columbia for a month.
Chas...my heart belongs to Chas. God, I love that boy. We talk and have the best conversations of my week, he makes me smile, he's risky and adventurous, full of emotion, he makes me happier than anyone in the world could, and I love him beyond words.
I'm not physically attracted to Rob.
Chas cheated on me with a married woman.
I don't want to play with Rob like Chas plays with me. I don't want Chas jealous, because I know he is still possessive of me. Chas is still deciding whether we will ever be a couple again. I want to wait for that decision, it is very important to me. I would give up forever for one day with Chas. Rob is just too good to me.
...but I love Chas...