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okie, i've been crying now for like an hour. it's helping me soo much. i just talked to him and he flat out let me know what the fuck is up. i think i just needed to hear him say it. its over i dont like you anymore, and i DONT want to be with you. you need to stop hanging on. ok so i think im just crying out all my bottled up emotions. hes not even worth it, thats what i should be thinking right now. he told me that i wasnt a challenge, i dont think i've ever had words emotionally tear me apart the way the ones i just heard did. i almost feel better now that im just letting my emotions out. i got so many questions answered by him and as much as the answers hurt me i have to just suck it up and deal with it. it isnt healthy to hold onto someone for this long, no one should put themselves through this much, so i decided......stop! thats all it takes, just fucking stop. so with that ill say goodbye, and that is that i suppose. have fun with her i hope she is better....since everyone else seems to be. but damnit im the one who always gave a fuck when no one else did god doesnt he even remembor the nice things ive done? i just dont understand and i never will i guess i wasnt enough of a challenge for him so here he goes to test drive another one, fuck it, fucking fuck everything!