Update - drama free for once!
Hey all:
Well, it appears that some time off was exactly what I needed. I actually do feel recharged, energized, rested, calm, and confident that I can do whatever I want or need to do. It feels pretty damned good - it seems a long time since I felt this good.
Feral! was certainly part of it. The week before at work was total crap, left me feeling just awful, like there was no point in trying because shit just gets fucked up anyways - and even though it wasn't all my fault, I know I could/should have been more diligent to make sure that things were a little more error-proof.
That left me without any motivation to plan for Feral! - I managed to scrape together the basics, but I had no motivation to really plan anything beyond just making sure I had the right stuff with me so that if it happened, I was somewhat prepared.
Turns out to have worked just fine. I was busy for most of Feral!, but not like past years - I never felt rushed or stressed, and I took it easy a lot of the time. It was great - spent a lot of time with Alex/TCW, which was good. I guess it would have been nice to spend a little more time with some people I get to see less often, but I'm not all that concerned. I played some music, did some swimming, snuggled a sweet puppy, and relaxed.
There was also a very large amount of interest in my t-shirts at Feral!, and I took a bunch of new commissions (which I said I wouldn't do, but how do you say no? I warned people that it would take me a while to get to them, as I already have a backlog.) However, I feel really energized to get started on them, and really blaze through them!
Before and after Feral! I spent some time cleaning, and hanging around with various people. It was really great to have 4 days after Feral! to recover, I spent a lot of that time with Alex as well, and it's all been very nice.
So anyways, here's what I plan to do with my new-found energy/hope/drive:
Commissions - Start by making a list of all of them, sending out a note to everyone regarding my commission list, and start on 'em!
House Upgrades - I have a huge list of home-improvement projects for which all materials are already purchased, all I need do is DO them. And I am just burning to get this house looking awesome and feeling like a home!
Health - Back to the gym starting tomorrow! Also gonna start really working on making most of my meals, including lunches, instead of buying them. Things look a little better for some of my medical issues. I will be losing some fat and gaining some muscle/tone and feeling well and productive and accomplished!
Finances - Doing some commissions should be a small additional source of income. All the house upgrades will only cost me in time, not money. Being so busy should keep me from spending money. I am using Air Miles to get to Winnipeg for Christmas. I will get out of debt!
Music - It's a little back-burnered at the moment, but I will keep it in mind and it'll bubble up again when it's time.
Work - This will be the hardest one I think, to really buckle down and really take it seriously and get some stuff done and be good at what I'm doing.
Anyways, now to go work on that last one.
B.
Well, it appears that some time off was exactly what I needed. I actually do feel recharged, energized, rested, calm, and confident that I can do whatever I want or need to do. It feels pretty damned good - it seems a long time since I felt this good.
Feral! was certainly part of it. The week before at work was total crap, left me feeling just awful, like there was no point in trying because shit just gets fucked up anyways - and even though it wasn't all my fault, I know I could/should have been more diligent to make sure that things were a little more error-proof.
That left me without any motivation to plan for Feral! - I managed to scrape together the basics, but I had no motivation to really plan anything beyond just making sure I had the right stuff with me so that if it happened, I was somewhat prepared.
Turns out to have worked just fine. I was busy for most of Feral!, but not like past years - I never felt rushed or stressed, and I took it easy a lot of the time. It was great - spent a lot of time with Alex/TCW, which was good. I guess it would have been nice to spend a little more time with some people I get to see less often, but I'm not all that concerned. I played some music, did some swimming, snuggled a sweet puppy, and relaxed.
There was also a very large amount of interest in my t-shirts at Feral!, and I took a bunch of new commissions (which I said I wouldn't do, but how do you say no? I warned people that it would take me a while to get to them, as I already have a backlog.) However, I feel really energized to get started on them, and really blaze through them!
Before and after Feral! I spent some time cleaning, and hanging around with various people. It was really great to have 4 days after Feral! to recover, I spent a lot of that time with Alex as well, and it's all been very nice.
So anyways, here's what I plan to do with my new-found energy/hope/drive:
Commissions - Start by making a list of all of them, sending out a note to everyone regarding my commission list, and start on 'em!
House Upgrades - I have a huge list of home-improvement projects for which all materials are already purchased, all I need do is DO them. And I am just burning to get this house looking awesome and feeling like a home!
Health - Back to the gym starting tomorrow! Also gonna start really working on making most of my meals, including lunches, instead of buying them. Things look a little better for some of my medical issues. I will be losing some fat and gaining some muscle/tone and feeling well and productive and accomplished!
Finances - Doing some commissions should be a small additional source of income. All the house upgrades will only cost me in time, not money. Being so busy should keep me from spending money. I am using Air Miles to get to Winnipeg for Christmas. I will get out of debt!
Music - It's a little back-burnered at the moment, but I will keep it in mind and it'll bubble up again when it's time.
Work - This will be the hardest one I think, to really buckle down and really take it seriously and get some stuff done and be good at what I'm doing.
Anyways, now to go work on that last one.
B.