Fic- Let Me Love You
Title: Let Me Love You
Pairing: Jack/Ianto
Rating: Teen - swearing
Spoilers: Mild for Cyberwoman, Small Worlds, Something Borrowed.
Summary: Ianto gets distant sometimes.
Disclaimers: I own nothing!
Notes: I’m experiencing brain death after exams and this was really hard to get out so I hope it was worth it! Comments please!
Ianto was asleep. Jack watched him, stroking any part of him he could reach. Ianto snuggled into him but kept shifting in his sleep. Jack stroked his waist, his cheek, his arm, any part he could. Ianto was so beautiful, so soft, so young in his sleep. Jack couldn’t get enough of the sight of it.
But that night, he was restless, shifting in his sleep and letting out moans. He was having dreams and Jack knew they would wake him eventually.
Jack stroked Ianto’s hair. “My boy,” he whispered. “My beautiful boy.”
Ianto shifted, turning his face up to Jack. Jack stroked his cheeks and ran a finger over his lips. Ianto whimpered and suddenly he was awake and gazing up into Jack’s eyes.
“Hello, Jack,” he murmured.
Jack smiled. “Hello, you.”
Ianto smiled and let out a soft sigh.
Jack cupped his cheek. “So, what were you dreaming about?”
Ianto frowned and pulled away. “Nothing much.”
Jack sighed, suddenly feeling empty without Ianto in his arms. “Why do you do that?”
Ianto’s frown deepened but he didn’t look at Jack. “Do what?”
“Get all distant on me. You’re always doing it.”
Ianto didn’t answer.
“Is it because of Lisa?”
Ianto tensed. “No. It’s not because of Lisa. That was two years ago. I wish you wouldn’t keep bringing her up.”
“All right, all right. I’m sorry.”
Ianto sighed, looking decidedly impatient.
Jack reached out for him. “What is it then? Why do you get so distant?”
Ianto glanced at him, then away. “Because of you.”
“Me? Why me?”
“Because…because…look, Jack, I’ve loved before, you know that. You’ve loved before. You loved Estelle. You loved your wife. You love the doctor. I loved Lisa. We can’t love anymore.”
“Estelle is dead. My wife is dead. Lisa is dead. And the doctor is never here. Why can’t we love each other, Ianto? Why?”
“We just can’t.”
“Is it because of Torchwood? Because you know that’s bullshit, Ianto. Gwen and Rhys love each other. It’s not impossible.”
“It is, Jack.”
“Why, Ianto? Why can’t you let me love you?”
“Because…” He turned his head towards Jack and there were tears in his eyes. “Because you’re forever and I’m…not.”
Jack reached out for Ianto, cupped his face. “That doesn’t matter to me, Ianto.
Ianto pulled away. “You can’t love me, Jack. Not ever.” He turned over, facing away from Jack. Jack watched him wipe his face, then pull the covers over him and prepare to go back to sleep.
Jack shifted closer and wrapped his arms around Ianto. He kissed his cheek and held him close.
“I want to love you, Ianto,” he whispered and he could feel Ianto’s breath hitch against him. “I want so much to love you. Maybe one day you’ll let me.”