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I can't believe it is over. This needs to be a dream I can just wake up from and everything will be ok. I love him so much. I dont want to live without him. I feel so helpless there is nothing I can do. Its his decision but I am not okay with it. All those good memories. I think he really did care about me....I hope. I just need help dealing with it. I can't do it on my own. Crying really wears u out. I don't know what to do. I just want to run away. I dont feel like it is worth it to go on with all this pain I have. God can't just let me be happy. It has to get fucked up. What is wrong with me? i will change...i swear. I don't want to lose him! I can't. He has made my life enjoyable and worth it. I don't feel like it is worth it to go on if he isn't here with me. I wish I could snap my fingers and all these problems would go away and things would go back to how they used to be. I was so happy. I don't wanna feel all this sadness. I've already done the depression thing....I don't want to go through it again. Im just not good enough I guess.