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Today was seriously one of the best days of my life. I received a phone call from the school of education to tell me that I had been accepted to my program. I turned in my application on Oct. 1 and let me tell you that this past month has been the longest month of my life. Everyday I check the mailbox like 5 times to see if I got my letter yet. I am so excited that I got in. I am very proud of myself which is something that I have not been able to say very much lately. The program is very competitive and I feel good about myself that I got in, but I owe it all to God. I have prayed so much the past month to get into my program which I felt was a little selfish, but I knew that if I didn't get in then it was God's will and he had better plans for me. The thought of having to transfer schools again scared and upset me. I know that at EKU I would have Chris and be closer to home, but it would not be the same. High school is so much crap, and I think that college is where you really start to become who you are and you grow and make the friends that really matter(minus the few exceptions). Louisville is a part of me now. I have a life here that I don't want to leave, especially to move somewhere and have to start all over. I acted like it wouldn't bother me that much to transfer, but it really would have. Lesley is one of my best friends in the world and I really did not want to have to leave her. The past year we have become really close and you know how people always say that college is where you make the real friends that will be lifelong. Well I really Lesley is one of those friends. Don't get me wrong, Chris is a great friend and she is the exception to the rule. On top of not wanting to leave my roomie, I really didn't want to leave my neighbors either. I have had such a blast living next to Doug and Chad. Even though we have all had our disagreements I love 'em. I know that we have all got mad at each other, got on each others nerves, and bitched, but they are two of my really good friends and I would not want to leave them. I never expected to be close to Doug and Chad because Doug was just Chris' boyfriend and Chad was the mutual friend, but I am glad that we did because I have a lot of fun with them. I can't forget about my sisters and other friends. My sisters have done so much for me that I could never list it all and the thought of leaving them and our sisterhood made me want to cry. I can not sit here and write about all of my friends, because it would take too long, but each of them are special to me in some way. I guess I didn't really think about how much I love being here in Louisville, and how much my friends really mean to me until I had to face the option of leaving it all. I guess in life we all take things for granted until it is gone or in my case there is a threat of it all being gone. This month has been ROUGH on my emotions and mental state, but I think that the light is starting to show through all the darkness. I want to thank all my friends for standing by my side through all the hard times I have lately and mostly for believing in me when I didn't believe in myself.