Why Would I?

[brandonz_gurl]

I am a loose cannon.

I decided I shouldn't drink at karaoke tonight. As much fun as it is, lately the fun has left and the depressant part of the alcohol has set in. I know it's better to stop than to keep going. I could sit here and write out reasons why drinking really isn't that bad for me and all that jazz, but I'd be lying to myself. It depresses me even more and I don't even enjoy beer. Why the hell am I doing it in the first place?

We had a department meeting today for nearly 3 hours and it was making me really upset. It was all about these changes that will be happening to our store and going through a sense of community and I was very sad. I love this place too much. Now that the date of leaving is coming even sooner than I want... I'm becoming increasingly more upset as days go by. I want to grow with this store. But maybe I can grow higher in Canandaigua and come back here in a different time. A life of the W is not as depressing to me as it once was.

I really hope the happiness I had from Monday-Tuesday comes back.