Kill Me
I am so crushed and sad right now, words will never explain it !
I can't type what happened becuz its a long story - and Trevor is sittin across from me and I don't want him to know what is going on...because he would flip out on me.
Let's keep it simple shall we ? I never knew how fake it was - and it still is ! Am I the one who jus prays an try to make things the way they are and hope they turn into those ways ? Or did the matter on the other end help out an make things the way they are to make me happy ?
One question on my mind is - how...just how can u lie to someone thru your teeth and then love them behind closed doors ? Just how ?
I am so hurt right now, I think I mite have jus entered a depressed state, but will have to bite my lip an hide it..hide it until one day I explode but - the words will never matter and the pain won't go away
NEVER !
One thing I will admit and admit only is I am not stupid and I do my research at all times....even when you think for one split secound I don't know - Oh I know and I jus hide it to your face. See there is a way of finding out certain things - and I just did. But - ppl continue to lie an think I dont know an then BAM I found out an they sit there wondering "HOLY SHIT HOW DID SHE FIND OUT ?" mysterious you ask ?? - Nah just common sense in the right mind !
For now on everything I do or say to be nice - will be pointless....and non- considerate while I sit here thinking "Anyone else would love this"
I just want someone to talk to an to give me advice...its always me givin advice and listening hrs after hrs anf fighting sleep to help slove the problem - but when Sammy needs help its "Oh fuck her " An if they do listen to anything I say all there is advice is "Oh I don't know " So that dont help much does it ?