Gage's coma. Our posture.
Gage has opted to be placed in a medical coma, with no artificial feeding or breathing. He's hoping he will die. We hope the same for him - not out of any resentment towards him, but out of mercy for him. (We believe in euthanasia. We would euthanize him, except it almost never works to kill anyone off inside here. It's not like these people are characters. They're more than that.)
Anyway. We suspect his painful emotions will leak out through the remaining fronters, and when we feel these things we'll know it's coming from Gage. But that's all right. There are six of us to absorb the rage, it won't all be on Alex any more. Everybody's volunteered to do their part.
As far as what Gage will experience, we hope to keep him in a soft bed, with continually running TV shows and movies and music that he likes (there will definitely be some rock and roll involved in that one) - and we hope to maintain him at the point of the most blissful high we ever achieved during our get-high days. He certainly won't suffer, if we cam do that. He won't be aware of his scars any more. He'll feel soft and floaty and wonderful, and very loved.
We thought of trying to communicate to him, but he said no, that would only keep him in this world. So we wont' do that.
But we will go in an give him hugs and back rubs, that sort of thing. Some physical affection, since he might still be aware of the physical world around him. Because we know how much it means to Brandon, and also Freddie, to have that physical comfort on a regular basis.
Now. Our posture. A neighbor brought it to our attention that we're really 'spazzy' lately. In fact, she asked us if we were all right! She's right, we are a bit spazzy in our movements, without being aware of it. KInd of like, we're not completely aware that we're in out own skin. We think it may be the Prozac. So today we're going to start weaning off it again.
Also, we had the damn thyroid test to make the doctor happy, so now we'll be weaning off that as well, going back to the herbal supplements that don't have all those nasty side effects. I think we'll all feel much better.
Anyway. We suspect his painful emotions will leak out through the remaining fronters, and when we feel these things we'll know it's coming from Gage. But that's all right. There are six of us to absorb the rage, it won't all be on Alex any more. Everybody's volunteered to do their part.
As far as what Gage will experience, we hope to keep him in a soft bed, with continually running TV shows and movies and music that he likes (there will definitely be some rock and roll involved in that one) - and we hope to maintain him at the point of the most blissful high we ever achieved during our get-high days. He certainly won't suffer, if we cam do that. He won't be aware of his scars any more. He'll feel soft and floaty and wonderful, and very loved.
We thought of trying to communicate to him, but he said no, that would only keep him in this world. So we wont' do that.
But we will go in an give him hugs and back rubs, that sort of thing. Some physical affection, since he might still be aware of the physical world around him. Because we know how much it means to Brandon, and also Freddie, to have that physical comfort on a regular basis.
Now. Our posture. A neighbor brought it to our attention that we're really 'spazzy' lately. In fact, she asked us if we were all right! She's right, we are a bit spazzy in our movements, without being aware of it. KInd of like, we're not completely aware that we're in out own skin. We think it may be the Prozac. So today we're going to start weaning off it again.
Also, we had the damn thyroid test to make the doctor happy, so now we'll be weaning off that as well, going back to the herbal supplements that don't have all those nasty side effects. I think we'll all feel much better.