Mother's Day.
It's been such a long year. It seems like it's been about four years, since this time last year.
From the outside it looks like little has changed. But for us a lot has changed, because the changes are ones we can stick with.
For one thing, looking back over old journals, before we moved from the old house we still couldn't work or go to school, due to insomnia. (Even on the same meds we're on now. Which, probably means we were still not sleeping due to stress.) In our old journal we wrote, "I never know what day it is, or what time it is." Now, all we need is a calendar and a clock, and we know where we're at in time (or pretty close). People didn't believe us back then, it sounded like an excuse. But it was a real problem. Ever show up to a volunteer job on your day off ? Well if you're volunteering on a political campaign, that's a good way to get politely asked to leave because "you must be tired".
Nowdays, we're in school. Yes, it's part time - but we're still in school. We're used to getting to bed at a certain time, we wake up at the same time each morning without an alarm clock.
And another big change - we've made the adjustment to waking up every morning with the intention of getting dressed and getting out the door. That is huge, after all those decades of, make sure everybody's support work is done (laundry, picking up, etcetera) before you even get dressed, much less out the door.
Gotta go - need to get to bed.
But we had a terrific mother's day. Russell came over and ate with us, Rachel called, and Ross came home with a card and without the grouchy mood.
The most fun part, was visiting with Russell. We miss his company in the evenings.
From the outside it looks like little has changed. But for us a lot has changed, because the changes are ones we can stick with.
For one thing, looking back over old journals, before we moved from the old house we still couldn't work or go to school, due to insomnia. (Even on the same meds we're on now. Which, probably means we were still not sleeping due to stress.) In our old journal we wrote, "I never know what day it is, or what time it is." Now, all we need is a calendar and a clock, and we know where we're at in time (or pretty close). People didn't believe us back then, it sounded like an excuse. But it was a real problem. Ever show up to a volunteer job on your day off ? Well if you're volunteering on a political campaign, that's a good way to get politely asked to leave because "you must be tired".
Nowdays, we're in school. Yes, it's part time - but we're still in school. We're used to getting to bed at a certain time, we wake up at the same time each morning without an alarm clock.
And another big change - we've made the adjustment to waking up every morning with the intention of getting dressed and getting out the door. That is huge, after all those decades of, make sure everybody's support work is done (laundry, picking up, etcetera) before you even get dressed, much less out the door.
Gotta go - need to get to bed.
But we had a terrific mother's day. Russell came over and ate with us, Rachel called, and Ross came home with a card and without the grouchy mood.
The most fun part, was visiting with Russell. We miss his company in the evenings.