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What do you mean truely love? How can you even say I have no truely loved you, and even so, how do you know what true love is? By the things you see happening to your friends? Yes, I admit, I did many a wrong thing in this relationship, and did most of the damage, but I am not the sole responsible person for it all. And in all of that, love is working through something, and we have, and yes, it has been a rough battle, but as much as I had not known, and had been back and forth, you had been the same. You had dropped me many times in a short span, and everytime we began to talk I took it all back with arms wide open wanting it to work. If I honestly don't love you, then I would have just let it go. I would have never talked to you again, or tried to. You want to know why neither of us can walk away? Because thats how in love we are. And you can't tell me it's anything else. I have realized that, I tried to figure it out if by some reason, something else, and I was like no, it really is that I love you so fucking much. I also realized I was being stubborn in some aspects, as are you. And we both need to realize we are both stubborn and figure out how to fix the stubborness.
Can't you see that. I mean seriously, I would do anything for you, I really would, because of my busy life lately, and it only getting worse, and some of the arguments we have had, and the problems that I have been stubborn on, I realized, yeah, I need to really change some of those things because they aren't helping, and thats what I have begun to do more drastically than ever. So please try and notice that.
Listen, if you want to give up, and walk away, then you do it for good, do not come back to me after this time, just don't, dont fuck with my head in that way that you dont want me to fuck with yours. Do not do what you did not want me to do to you. If you leave, then leave. If not, then stay, and work with me and grow with me, and become something with me. We are both at a really trying area in our lives, with so much changing, so many things to take on, it sparks the arguments and the situations, and sometimes we don't see clearly. I am working on that because I have realized that. So without making this too long, I love you, I would run to your rescue at any moment. But, if you feel you don't want this anymore, then like I said, leave for good and don't come back, because if you keep coming back, it will continue like this. And if you stay, really mean it, and stay. Just because I don't buy you cute things all of the time and I don't have all the time in the world for you to take you out, and to go and do all sorts of things because I get off late and have lots of homework and things to do, doesnt mean I dont care about you and don;t love you, and don't try to show it in any way possible. For me, I love the little things, I need nothing big from you at all, just that when we are together to give me attention and to show that you appreciate me, and I will do the same, and I have tried, when i am with you, I try and let you know you are beautiful, at all times when I see you, even in the morning, and I look straight into your eyes and just stare, and I smile, and I hold you tight, and I cant stop kissing you or looking at you. Those things should tell you I love you, and the cute things come second to that, because my mind is in a million places at a million times with a million and one things to do, I can't always be on par with all of the buying cute things and doing every little move script thing that seems to be what you want. And if you can't deal with that and want that in someone else, then fine. But if you can deal with knowing that I do love you, and just by me being here the whole time and never really leaving, and always trying to improve even when I slip up, and still trying, and still talking and still making an effort, you should see that I love you.
I am but a person who is learning, and taking things in at different times and stages than you are. I am really trying to examine my life and my ways to figure out what I need to really truely change and what I need to keep to make things work.
So there you have it, love is not measured by the amount of time spent or the material things one can acquire, just look at everything, if I really didn't want you, I would have been gone months ago, and if you really didn't want me, you too, would have done the same.
But this is up to you.
I love you, with or without you.
Can't you see that. I mean seriously, I would do anything for you, I really would, because of my busy life lately, and it only getting worse, and some of the arguments we have had, and the problems that I have been stubborn on, I realized, yeah, I need to really change some of those things because they aren't helping, and thats what I have begun to do more drastically than ever. So please try and notice that.
Listen, if you want to give up, and walk away, then you do it for good, do not come back to me after this time, just don't, dont fuck with my head in that way that you dont want me to fuck with yours. Do not do what you did not want me to do to you. If you leave, then leave. If not, then stay, and work with me and grow with me, and become something with me. We are both at a really trying area in our lives, with so much changing, so many things to take on, it sparks the arguments and the situations, and sometimes we don't see clearly. I am working on that because I have realized that. So without making this too long, I love you, I would run to your rescue at any moment. But, if you feel you don't want this anymore, then like I said, leave for good and don't come back, because if you keep coming back, it will continue like this. And if you stay, really mean it, and stay. Just because I don't buy you cute things all of the time and I don't have all the time in the world for you to take you out, and to go and do all sorts of things because I get off late and have lots of homework and things to do, doesnt mean I dont care about you and don;t love you, and don't try to show it in any way possible. For me, I love the little things, I need nothing big from you at all, just that when we are together to give me attention and to show that you appreciate me, and I will do the same, and I have tried, when i am with you, I try and let you know you are beautiful, at all times when I see you, even in the morning, and I look straight into your eyes and just stare, and I smile, and I hold you tight, and I cant stop kissing you or looking at you. Those things should tell you I love you, and the cute things come second to that, because my mind is in a million places at a million times with a million and one things to do, I can't always be on par with all of the buying cute things and doing every little move script thing that seems to be what you want. And if you can't deal with that and want that in someone else, then fine. But if you can deal with knowing that I do love you, and just by me being here the whole time and never really leaving, and always trying to improve even when I slip up, and still trying, and still talking and still making an effort, you should see that I love you.
I am but a person who is learning, and taking things in at different times and stages than you are. I am really trying to examine my life and my ways to figure out what I need to really truely change and what I need to keep to make things work.
So there you have it, love is not measured by the amount of time spent or the material things one can acquire, just look at everything, if I really didn't want you, I would have been gone months ago, and if you really didn't want me, you too, would have done the same.
But this is up to you.
I love you, with or without you.