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I'm in a thinking mood. sometimes when I get into thinking moods they turn into bad moods because I start thinking about how lonely I can get even when there are people who are about me all around. Then that starts making me think "why am I thinking about being lonely?" "shouldn't I be focusing on other things?" I dunno. Theres always something wonky in my head.
I miss friends from home. not really going out that much up here, but I'm having fun just doing my own thing.
going to class downtown is dope, too bad I dont have any money to go to the sweet resturaunts between classes for lunch.
maybe not having any money is the reason why I get bummed out. I've never really cared that much about money though, still don't think I do. I'd rather be poor and happy, or just living ok and happy, then be super rich and have all those problems that come with money. people that you've known your whole life could turn on you over money, I never want to see that happen.
But I guess money is an essential part of life in a fucked up sort of way. that's why i'm trying to get a stupid job I guess.
It'll all be worth it when I start getting checks.
My folks have been great, they give me so much and I'm finally learning to fully appreciate it.
the songwriting process has been starting again, slow, but it's a start. Dennis is supposed to come out here with Kaman and maybe Coiner to see if we can really do what we think we can.
I played that show a couple weeks back too with the project I have with Brennan that we call: "Life on Auto-pilot" (I didn't pick the name lol) and it was fun. It made me think of all the EOS shows and it just felt great to see people smiling on account of us and our music.
I've been wanting to do some open mic nights, but I can't just push myself to do it myself. Kinda sucks theres noone here at all to really listen to it and critique me. Makes me think of Jessica because she would always be streight with me and never beat around the bush about anything. I guess her and that joe dude got an apartment and i'm happy for her, because for the first time really since I've met her she seems truly happy. and that makes me happy.
I dunno I got off topic, but yeah. I guess an important thing to think about is to never hold a grudge for too long even if the shit someone did to you may have hurt you a lot, because its not worth it because the person could not be there the next day. and you dont want to say goodbye to someone that left on a bad note.
This college process is going to take a fucking long time, so until i'm done i'm going to have as much fun as i can and put illegal substances inside my body to pass the time. lol jk jk.
but yeah other then that, I'm 19 and its crazy, i want to go to canada so bad. haha.
I miss friends from home. not really going out that much up here, but I'm having fun just doing my own thing.
going to class downtown is dope, too bad I dont have any money to go to the sweet resturaunts between classes for lunch.
maybe not having any money is the reason why I get bummed out. I've never really cared that much about money though, still don't think I do. I'd rather be poor and happy, or just living ok and happy, then be super rich and have all those problems that come with money. people that you've known your whole life could turn on you over money, I never want to see that happen.
But I guess money is an essential part of life in a fucked up sort of way. that's why i'm trying to get a stupid job I guess.
It'll all be worth it when I start getting checks.
My folks have been great, they give me so much and I'm finally learning to fully appreciate it.
the songwriting process has been starting again, slow, but it's a start. Dennis is supposed to come out here with Kaman and maybe Coiner to see if we can really do what we think we can.
I played that show a couple weeks back too with the project I have with Brennan that we call: "Life on Auto-pilot" (I didn't pick the name lol) and it was fun. It made me think of all the EOS shows and it just felt great to see people smiling on account of us and our music.
I've been wanting to do some open mic nights, but I can't just push myself to do it myself. Kinda sucks theres noone here at all to really listen to it and critique me. Makes me think of Jessica because she would always be streight with me and never beat around the bush about anything. I guess her and that joe dude got an apartment and i'm happy for her, because for the first time really since I've met her she seems truly happy. and that makes me happy.
I dunno I got off topic, but yeah. I guess an important thing to think about is to never hold a grudge for too long even if the shit someone did to you may have hurt you a lot, because its not worth it because the person could not be there the next day. and you dont want to say goodbye to someone that left on a bad note.
This college process is going to take a fucking long time, so until i'm done i'm going to have as much fun as i can and put illegal substances inside my body to pass the time. lol jk jk.
but yeah other then that, I'm 19 and its crazy, i want to go to canada so bad. haha.