Fat Girl Poetry makes me laugh...wanna read mine?
Im kinda confused. I have finally done what my friends have told me to do and Im not sure if I should have. I mean if he was the bad friend then why do I feel incredabley horrible without him being around? We had fun, we just would fight...alot...I thought it was my fault but it seems like everyone says it was him. How is that possible that he is a shitty friend when he has more friends than myself? I just dont know....And I thought that if we werent friends we would make up but he hasnt even made an attempt...it saddens me to think he really doesnt wanna be my friend...But maybe he is testing me so see if I wanna be his friend and wait for me to call. I just dunno. I wish I could talk to him about it but I dont know. I guess I say I dont know alot But that is because I am confused...I just wish I were a freshmen again when I had friends....I hung out with Jeremy, Jackie, Teresa, Carrie, Justin alot and they were always there....Now it seems no one is there. I just wanna call him but everyone says no.....like its a bad relationship where the weak one always goes back or something..Maybe by next year things will work out....Senior year would be real nice if I could spend it with my friend (or not a friend I dunno) Justin..Im sorrie to all that said I shouldnt call him but I am weak and it seems he makes me more sane....So for my sanity I am doing it and we will see how it goes...
.I love ya lots!! LN