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sick all weekend, that was no fun. missed andy's b-day. the big 18 too!! i will have to give him his present this week :(
fever is finally gone, so now i get to go out. i think nick and i are going to a movie tonite.
got some valuable advice from my boss, beth. trying my hardest to live by it and try it out.
christmas is going to be wonderful this year because i have money and can afford presents for people.
i am sending nick to the blue meanies in chicago if all works out for part of his present. happy day.
try as i might, i will never understand people. the human race confuses me more than anything. but right now, the tiny bubble i have is making me happy. i have my fam, nick, sara, maria, pete, andy, mitch...and every now and then the boys who stop over. its nice. i may not have a best friend right now, but i think that is the best thing for me. i learned that i was trying too hard to have everyone i knew on the level of best friend and it was really hard to keep everyone equal. i learned that i was placing too much emphasis on how much people liked me and cared for me. i cant make people like me, they do or they dont. i wish the whole world did, but oh well. (i have a problem with people disliking me.) i went out on a limb and threw myself out there to make a friend, and it worked. granted, we dont hang out all the time, but thats okay by me. i kind of like it that way. i am establishing my life away from nick slowly and surely and i like it. and so does he. its working out for us now that i am doing more and more things with my time. im working. its hard, its not perfect, but im working.
i wish everyone i knew was happy right now, but that cant always work. so to those who arent, hang in there...chin up dollface, all will be fine.
and with that, i shower.
xoxo
mer
ps - katie lawless....season 8 of friends comes out tuesday, i thought you might want to know if you didnt already.
fever is finally gone, so now i get to go out. i think nick and i are going to a movie tonite.
got some valuable advice from my boss, beth. trying my hardest to live by it and try it out.
christmas is going to be wonderful this year because i have money and can afford presents for people.
i am sending nick to the blue meanies in chicago if all works out for part of his present. happy day.
try as i might, i will never understand people. the human race confuses me more than anything. but right now, the tiny bubble i have is making me happy. i have my fam, nick, sara, maria, pete, andy, mitch...and every now and then the boys who stop over. its nice. i may not have a best friend right now, but i think that is the best thing for me. i learned that i was trying too hard to have everyone i knew on the level of best friend and it was really hard to keep everyone equal. i learned that i was placing too much emphasis on how much people liked me and cared for me. i cant make people like me, they do or they dont. i wish the whole world did, but oh well. (i have a problem with people disliking me.) i went out on a limb and threw myself out there to make a friend, and it worked. granted, we dont hang out all the time, but thats okay by me. i kind of like it that way. i am establishing my life away from nick slowly and surely and i like it. and so does he. its working out for us now that i am doing more and more things with my time. im working. its hard, its not perfect, but im working.
i wish everyone i knew was happy right now, but that cant always work. so to those who arent, hang in there...chin up dollface, all will be fine.
and with that, i shower.
xoxo
mer
ps - katie lawless....season 8 of friends comes out tuesday, i thought you might want to know if you didnt already.