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ummmm. okay well yesterday i totaly freaked.it was crying all day, staying up all night. nothing unsual i guess. because school sucks and im beginning to HATE myself again. but im doing better today.ive kind of realized that its okay i dont look or walk or talk like everyone else. but it still sucks to have everyone making fun of you everyday because i say "lame" and thats a stupid surfer word or i have long hair instead of perfect short hair. iono. i dont want to think about it.4 more years of hell then no more school unless im going to college. oh, hannahs best friend sam isnt cooler then me =) i talked to hannah and were friends again. i miss having a friend thats a girl. but all my guy friends are great. but just one girl would be nice. what else. besides being depressed thats really all. im trying to hard to not let all this crap get to me. now lauren is spreading rumors about me. everyones talking about me at the "popular" table.if that chick spreads one more rumor about me ima fucking make her life misserable because im EVIL like that. or ill just say fuck off and dont opean your mouth to me ever again bitchhh. that might work. sigh, today my mom let me skipped. my moms cool. but back to school tomarrow. HELL. please friday, COME!