tomarrow will not be better you liar

[brandnew_heart]

so this feeling of despair overwhelms
any other emotions, it crowds the room
pushing everything and anything out.
all the things i said i swore i loved,
i no i swear i'll always hate.
the organized agenda of same old day
after day. where the change? im staying
the same, maybe its everyone else not
moving,maybe its everyone else stuck in
the past,maybe everyone is walking, and
im running too fast. time stands still,
routine gets its revenge,days are useless,
its like trying to shake hands with the wind.
so fierce and sharp,but soft around the corners.
its power to move anything it wishes
at any moment. and all these feelings are
surreal to you,but to me there all too familiar.
like old neighbors walking in, not even bothering
to knock on the door. my body is hallow.
im just growing old watching my good years get
stolen from me, right in front of my eyes.
and its my fault for sitting down crossed legged on
the floor and let you rob me empty.
"dont cry,everything will be alright,
just watch, you'll see" ive been starring
into this world,and so far no secrets have
unfurled,its left me lost as i can ever be.