the last few days
i havent updated in a long ass time. i was asked 2 remove the previous entry by someone so i did so. im 2 nice...
monday was a good day. the morning was a usual morning then i went 2 my eye appt. turns out my eyes have gotten better so was happy :) then i went 2 krystals which i havent done in a long ass time. damn that shit is goood. my dad used 2 love it :-/ neway then i went home 2 find my new cell fone at the door. so i spent the rest of the night on the fone. the 1st person i called was alicia. she felt special. she is, she really is. then i was talkin 2 bridgey on the webcam and mic 4 a while. shes so pretty ;) then i was talkin 2 this guy she knos and we got into a fight sorta and bridget got mad at me then got mad at herself. so i went 2 bed depressed cuz i thought bridget hated me and that our friendship was over :( i ended up crying myself 2 sleep once again. so monday began well and ended horribly, 2many of my days r like that...
tuesday was interesting 2 say the least. i sdpent the morning leafblowing at my brother in laws storage building complex thing. it took a long ass time. bridget called me and said that its all ok so im happy that she dosnt hate me. then i watered plants and went 2 pick up my new glasses. by now i was running way late 2 see kelli (this would be the 1st timne i saw her in a month) so we ended up meetin about an hour later than we planned in belleview. then we drove to the villages. we were talkin, catchin up, etc, and we kissed. that happens way 2 much. the diff this time was i felt nothing at all. all i felt was love for alicia. i guess i just needed a kiss from neone. i miss alicia so much!!! i felt like crap 4 kissing her, cuz i did kiss her, and idk what would have happened if she didnt stop me, she didnt want me 2 be unhappy. i thank her 4 that. i did tell alicia and she understood. thank god. i feel like shit again tho. i see her friday i cant wait :) neway i got home and found myself really really depressed cuz i missed alicia so much. i just needed someone right then and noone was there. sigh. so again i cried myself 2 sleep. i need 2 not do that nemore...
life is so long...
ck
monday was a good day. the morning was a usual morning then i went 2 my eye appt. turns out my eyes have gotten better so was happy :) then i went 2 krystals which i havent done in a long ass time. damn that shit is goood. my dad used 2 love it :-/ neway then i went home 2 find my new cell fone at the door. so i spent the rest of the night on the fone. the 1st person i called was alicia. she felt special. she is, she really is. then i was talkin 2 bridgey on the webcam and mic 4 a while. shes so pretty ;) then i was talkin 2 this guy she knos and we got into a fight sorta and bridget got mad at me then got mad at herself. so i went 2 bed depressed cuz i thought bridget hated me and that our friendship was over :( i ended up crying myself 2 sleep once again. so monday began well and ended horribly, 2many of my days r like that...
tuesday was interesting 2 say the least. i sdpent the morning leafblowing at my brother in laws storage building complex thing. it took a long ass time. bridget called me and said that its all ok so im happy that she dosnt hate me. then i watered plants and went 2 pick up my new glasses. by now i was running way late 2 see kelli (this would be the 1st timne i saw her in a month) so we ended up meetin about an hour later than we planned in belleview. then we drove to the villages. we were talkin, catchin up, etc, and we kissed. that happens way 2 much. the diff this time was i felt nothing at all. all i felt was love for alicia. i guess i just needed a kiss from neone. i miss alicia so much!!! i felt like crap 4 kissing her, cuz i did kiss her, and idk what would have happened if she didnt stop me, she didnt want me 2 be unhappy. i thank her 4 that. i did tell alicia and she understood. thank god. i feel like shit again tho. i see her friday i cant wait :) neway i got home and found myself really really depressed cuz i missed alicia so much. i just needed someone right then and noone was there. sigh. so again i cried myself 2 sleep. i need 2 not do that nemore...
life is so long...
ck