Oh goody... grown up life.....bleh!
So I started my new job. My "grown up" job.
I work as a Residential Assistant in a Mental Health services facility for the homeless. You know it's a grown up job when it's takes over 2 or 3 words state your job description. hah at least that's what I've always thought.
I feel completely awkward and lost as to what I am supposed to do or not do and when I should be doing what. I hate change. I hate starting new things. I love the comfort of knowing what you're doing. I'm definitely not someone that jumps from one job to another. I like stability and feeling confident in my knowledge of the job I am performing.
I realize you have to start somewhere. Everyone there had to start out not knowing what they know now and being told by others how to complete tasks.
I am scheduled Fridays and Saturdays from 8-4:30. I got called today however, asking if I could come in tomorrow and swap it for Friday because my supervisor wants to do "additional training" with me. They just threw me into the mix this last weekend, with no training, no job shadowing, nothing. I feel like I got thrown into it, without preparation and now I am backpedaling and they want to train me because I did things incorrectly. I feel like I've already messed up.
Nothing I can do I guess except try and learn.
I hate the house I'm living in this summer. It is a sauna. Barely any houses in Hawaii have AC and I'm fine with that, its breezy enough here that you can do fine without one. The house I'm living in, however, gets zero breeze, it is the hottest place I've been on the entire island. You can't function in that house. Oh, and the best part? the mosquitoes. Shit tons of them...in the house. I have to wear bug spray and reapply every 2 hours in my own god damn house. I have bites everywhere. at least 20 I could count on me right now. and that's WITH bug spray on at all times. It's effing insane. Oh and there is no tv, at all, not even basic. And as of recently, there is no longer internet(I'm at the safeway a few blocks down) Had I known, I never would have agreed to this shit, I never would have agreed to live there. It is a horrible place.
I'm sick of it out here. I thought once I got a job I'd feel different. I'm starting to question my decisions. Just a constant, never ending dissatisfaction.
Things I miss:
-Internet in my own place
-TV!!
-Motivation
-Being cold. Or even just being comfortable with the weather.
-Connor
I work as a Residential Assistant in a Mental Health services facility for the homeless. You know it's a grown up job when it's takes over 2 or 3 words state your job description. hah at least that's what I've always thought.
I feel completely awkward and lost as to what I am supposed to do or not do and when I should be doing what. I hate change. I hate starting new things. I love the comfort of knowing what you're doing. I'm definitely not someone that jumps from one job to another. I like stability and feeling confident in my knowledge of the job I am performing.
I realize you have to start somewhere. Everyone there had to start out not knowing what they know now and being told by others how to complete tasks.
I am scheduled Fridays and Saturdays from 8-4:30. I got called today however, asking if I could come in tomorrow and swap it for Friday because my supervisor wants to do "additional training" with me. They just threw me into the mix this last weekend, with no training, no job shadowing, nothing. I feel like I got thrown into it, without preparation and now I am backpedaling and they want to train me because I did things incorrectly. I feel like I've already messed up.
Nothing I can do I guess except try and learn.
I hate the house I'm living in this summer. It is a sauna. Barely any houses in Hawaii have AC and I'm fine with that, its breezy enough here that you can do fine without one. The house I'm living in, however, gets zero breeze, it is the hottest place I've been on the entire island. You can't function in that house. Oh, and the best part? the mosquitoes. Shit tons of them...in the house. I have to wear bug spray and reapply every 2 hours in my own god damn house. I have bites everywhere. at least 20 I could count on me right now. and that's WITH bug spray on at all times. It's effing insane. Oh and there is no tv, at all, not even basic. And as of recently, there is no longer internet(I'm at the safeway a few blocks down) Had I known, I never would have agreed to this shit, I never would have agreed to live there. It is a horrible place.
I'm sick of it out here. I thought once I got a job I'd feel different. I'm starting to question my decisions. Just a constant, never ending dissatisfaction.
Things I miss:
-Internet in my own place
-TV!!
-Motivation
-Being cold. Or even just being comfortable with the weather.
-Connor