A New Life
Hey Guys,
Many of you know I've been going through a lot of stress and trouble. Mostly due to the huge changes in my life. Graduated from college. Moved across the country. Job searching. Things have been pretty bleak. But since the move and the settling in, they've been steadily getting better. Yes, there are some things which fluctuate terribly. Working with family has been a big part of that one. I have to learn the ins and outs about a dozen of family members I haven't visited regularly since early grade school. It's weird and intimidating at times. Especially since I can be a particularly aloof person.
The last thing I want to do is shoot myself in the foot when it comes to family. At the same time, I don't want to get *too* involved, either. I don't like politics, and family politics (of which there is much amongst my kin) is some of the worst kind there is. It's a precarious balance. Spend enough time without saying the wrong thing and all that.
I'm terribly lonely. I haven't made many friends out here, but then, I've only been here a couple weeks. I'm giving it time, of course, but in the same right... it's so much more difficult to make friends without being in a school environment. I think a lot of people take that for granted... Graduating early didn't help a terrible amount either. At least if I'd graduated at the same rate as other people, I might have ended up out here WITH some friends instead of entirely alone. But I suppose someone had to come out here first.
Well, I know this is going to get terribly convoluted in a few more sentences. It's late and I'm a bit wishy washy today. Had a bit of a misunderstanding with my uncle. It's a bit cleared up, but... I need to be careful about what I say and do. I'm so spacey and scatterbrained, and really it's just making me look ungrateful and lazy. That's not the case - I'm just horrifically forgetful of things. I need to get a new palm pilot. Mine had a bit of an accident on the way here... First paycheck, I'm gonna get me a good one, I think.
I'm going to bed now. Heading to the beach in the morning. If there's one great thing I can say about moving to California, it's that I have awesome weather here now. It's been a great change for my mental health. As much as I love the city of Chicago, the weather there sucks and just makes me miserable all the time. I love hot, dry weather... so I'm in a very happy place right now.
Mm, mm. I might even get a tan this weekend.
Many of you know I've been going through a lot of stress and trouble. Mostly due to the huge changes in my life. Graduated from college. Moved across the country. Job searching. Things have been pretty bleak. But since the move and the settling in, they've been steadily getting better. Yes, there are some things which fluctuate terribly. Working with family has been a big part of that one. I have to learn the ins and outs about a dozen of family members I haven't visited regularly since early grade school. It's weird and intimidating at times. Especially since I can be a particularly aloof person.
The last thing I want to do is shoot myself in the foot when it comes to family. At the same time, I don't want to get *too* involved, either. I don't like politics, and family politics (of which there is much amongst my kin) is some of the worst kind there is. It's a precarious balance. Spend enough time without saying the wrong thing and all that.
I'm terribly lonely. I haven't made many friends out here, but then, I've only been here a couple weeks. I'm giving it time, of course, but in the same right... it's so much more difficult to make friends without being in a school environment. I think a lot of people take that for granted... Graduating early didn't help a terrible amount either. At least if I'd graduated at the same rate as other people, I might have ended up out here WITH some friends instead of entirely alone. But I suppose someone had to come out here first.
Well, I know this is going to get terribly convoluted in a few more sentences. It's late and I'm a bit wishy washy today. Had a bit of a misunderstanding with my uncle. It's a bit cleared up, but... I need to be careful about what I say and do. I'm so spacey and scatterbrained, and really it's just making me look ungrateful and lazy. That's not the case - I'm just horrifically forgetful of things. I need to get a new palm pilot. Mine had a bit of an accident on the way here... First paycheck, I'm gonna get me a good one, I think.
I'm going to bed now. Heading to the beach in the morning. If there's one great thing I can say about moving to California, it's that I have awesome weather here now. It's been a great change for my mental health. As much as I love the city of Chicago, the weather there sucks and just makes me miserable all the time. I love hot, dry weather... so I'm in a very happy place right now.
Mm, mm. I might even get a tan this weekend.