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"do you think it hurts much to die?" it hurts so much more to stay alive now--
today sucked- like REALLY SUCKED!
was at the hospital from 7:30-2:00 this morning/afternoon---- my grandma isnt doing very good- they have to do some type of heart surgery/proceedure tomorrow sometime- im scared :(
what the hell is my problem? i cant be around anyone without getting pissed anymore- or at least around anyone in my family-- like tonite me n ma n brooke n dad n grandpa went to get something to eat--- i didnt want anything- my mom is like-- "have you eaten today" im like no- she freaks out (she thinks im like diabetic or something because i get really lightheaded n shit a lot lately n she found me passed out on the floor once n freaked out)--- pisses me off- i go nuts- i leave- i come home n lay in my room listenin to From Autumn to Ashes- again--- too bad you're beautiful--- call matt back (talked to him while i was getting ready to go to the hospital earlier) he doesnt answer- shit- oh well
Matt called back- he was out attempting to get himself arrested by riding his dirtbike through peoples properties- had fun running from the po po--- wat a dork---so now he cant come to CF tomorrow nite to hang out--- hes shooting a sk8/bmx video of some time- sounds like cool shit- but starting tomorrow nite in dyersville- he wants me to come- i dont know if i want to go that far away with my grandma being sick n all? shit i dunno---i wanted him to come here so bad tonite- but hes gotta wooork at 5 in the morning- oh well - again- this guy is cool shit
i have to go meet with my advisor tomorrow at noon- im sposed to have a list of classes picked out--- yeah so much for that shit--- there is like nothing left- the ONE CLASS i wanted into- Acting II -- is fuckin filled up- so there goes the one thing i was looking forward to next sememester- fuck- FUUUUUUCk
I think ima get my industrial pierced sometime this weekend or next week/end? dont know yet- i think mike is pissed or annoyed at/with me for some reason though? i dunno- i need to talk to him nywayz so ill go in tomorrow or sat probz
well... lifes a bitch- fuck this- im gonna go take a shit ton of tylenol pm n pass out
peace n love
brandee
today sucked- like REALLY SUCKED!
was at the hospital from 7:30-2:00 this morning/afternoon---- my grandma isnt doing very good- they have to do some type of heart surgery/proceedure tomorrow sometime- im scared :(
what the hell is my problem? i cant be around anyone without getting pissed anymore- or at least around anyone in my family-- like tonite me n ma n brooke n dad n grandpa went to get something to eat--- i didnt want anything- my mom is like-- "have you eaten today" im like no- she freaks out (she thinks im like diabetic or something because i get really lightheaded n shit a lot lately n she found me passed out on the floor once n freaked out)--- pisses me off- i go nuts- i leave- i come home n lay in my room listenin to From Autumn to Ashes- again--- too bad you're beautiful--- call matt back (talked to him while i was getting ready to go to the hospital earlier) he doesnt answer- shit- oh well
Matt called back- he was out attempting to get himself arrested by riding his dirtbike through peoples properties- had fun running from the po po--- wat a dork---so now he cant come to CF tomorrow nite to hang out--- hes shooting a sk8/bmx video of some time- sounds like cool shit- but starting tomorrow nite in dyersville- he wants me to come- i dont know if i want to go that far away with my grandma being sick n all? shit i dunno---i wanted him to come here so bad tonite- but hes gotta wooork at 5 in the morning- oh well - again- this guy is cool shit
i have to go meet with my advisor tomorrow at noon- im sposed to have a list of classes picked out--- yeah so much for that shit--- there is like nothing left- the ONE CLASS i wanted into- Acting II -- is fuckin filled up- so there goes the one thing i was looking forward to next sememester- fuck- FUUUUUUCk
I think ima get my industrial pierced sometime this weekend or next week/end? dont know yet- i think mike is pissed or annoyed at/with me for some reason though? i dunno- i need to talk to him nywayz so ill go in tomorrow or sat probz
well... lifes a bitch- fuck this- im gonna go take a shit ton of tylenol pm n pass out
peace n love
brandee