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summer is already almost over. it went by way too quick. mine actually kinda sucked. i just worked and brent left after the first moneth of summer and ive been bored and missing him.
weve been fighting a lot lately. i almost broke up with him last night. well i mean i did but of course it didnt last long.
it started because i started telling him that i feel like he is too busy for me. he hadnt really called me all day and when he did hed literally get off the phone in 10 seconds. and yesterday was worse than normal but he does it a lot. and he says he will call right back and sometmes he doesnt. and i dont know i felt like he didnt wanna talk to me.
so i was telling him how i felt and he got all mad at me. so we were arguing cuz he was trying to turn it around saying it was my fault or somethign and saying he never does that and always talks to me...which when he does he sits there and doesnt seem to even try to have conversations with me. and ill try to talk about something and he doesnt say much back. and i just worried me. plus what kind of relationship is that? and he was saying do you want me to just sit at home all day everyday just so i can talk to you?? and i told him, no i want to feel important to you and like to actually want to talk to me. cuz idk im scared that things will fade if it continues. plus i miss him. i mean we saw each other everyday as much as we possibly could before he moved. hed wake up at 8 to come see me and leave at 11:45 at night. we worked around out work schedule but we still had a lot of time together. so i mean i miss him. i get busy too. when im at work, ill call and text him. when im having fun shopping with my mom im like hmm im gonna call brent. i always make time for him. it might seem like not a huge deal but i mean it hurts my feelings and all girls like to talk to their boyfriends everyday... and actualy TALK.
so the fight continued and i told him im tired of this, i always tell you how i feel about this and you always turn it around to MY fault and you never change..so i dont know what to do...should i just give up and not call you and let you call me when you actually have time for me? and then he said "youre too needy"
ok so 1) i was on my period 2) i had worked all day 3)thats is just the wronggg thing to say at that moment.........
it kinda set me off. i told him i was blockin him from myspace and aim and my phone would be off...have a good life.
thats just the wrong thing to say period. first of all he "loves" me and says IM too needy for him...so it feels as if youre saying you need me more than i need you?? plus i mean I AM A GIRL.
so i was sitting there crying after i blocked him. and i had turned my phone off but i was so curious to see if he had been calling so i turned it on and right when i did there was a text and he kept calling. i wouldnt answer so he called my house phone. and i still wouldnt answer. but he kept calling and calling so finally i answered and told him "leave me alone cuz im too "needy" for you... the only girl youll find who isnt too needy for you is gonna be some stupid slut who doesnt care about you. so go find yourself a slut" and i hung up and he kept calling and i answered and was like what do you want. and he was saying sorry, i love you, please dont break up with me, i was mad i didnt mean to say that, ill change, im sorry.. blahblahblah. so i was being all stubborn for a while but then we started talking again and it got better.
but we still fight over stupid stuff. im not saying that was stupid cuz it did hurt my feelings.
and were not the kinda of couple to give each other a lot of space...
were jealous and want to know what each other is doing. and yeahhh
weve been fighting a lot lately. i almost broke up with him last night. well i mean i did but of course it didnt last long.
it started because i started telling him that i feel like he is too busy for me. he hadnt really called me all day and when he did hed literally get off the phone in 10 seconds. and yesterday was worse than normal but he does it a lot. and he says he will call right back and sometmes he doesnt. and i dont know i felt like he didnt wanna talk to me.
so i was telling him how i felt and he got all mad at me. so we were arguing cuz he was trying to turn it around saying it was my fault or somethign and saying he never does that and always talks to me...which when he does he sits there and doesnt seem to even try to have conversations with me. and ill try to talk about something and he doesnt say much back. and i just worried me. plus what kind of relationship is that? and he was saying do you want me to just sit at home all day everyday just so i can talk to you?? and i told him, no i want to feel important to you and like to actually want to talk to me. cuz idk im scared that things will fade if it continues. plus i miss him. i mean we saw each other everyday as much as we possibly could before he moved. hed wake up at 8 to come see me and leave at 11:45 at night. we worked around out work schedule but we still had a lot of time together. so i mean i miss him. i get busy too. when im at work, ill call and text him. when im having fun shopping with my mom im like hmm im gonna call brent. i always make time for him. it might seem like not a huge deal but i mean it hurts my feelings and all girls like to talk to their boyfriends everyday... and actualy TALK.
so the fight continued and i told him im tired of this, i always tell you how i feel about this and you always turn it around to MY fault and you never change..so i dont know what to do...should i just give up and not call you and let you call me when you actually have time for me? and then he said "youre too needy"
ok so 1) i was on my period 2) i had worked all day 3)thats is just the wronggg thing to say at that moment.........
it kinda set me off. i told him i was blockin him from myspace and aim and my phone would be off...have a good life.
thats just the wrong thing to say period. first of all he "loves" me and says IM too needy for him...so it feels as if youre saying you need me more than i need you?? plus i mean I AM A GIRL.
so i was sitting there crying after i blocked him. and i had turned my phone off but i was so curious to see if he had been calling so i turned it on and right when i did there was a text and he kept calling. i wouldnt answer so he called my house phone. and i still wouldnt answer. but he kept calling and calling so finally i answered and told him "leave me alone cuz im too "needy" for you... the only girl youll find who isnt too needy for you is gonna be some stupid slut who doesnt care about you. so go find yourself a slut" and i hung up and he kept calling and i answered and was like what do you want. and he was saying sorry, i love you, please dont break up with me, i was mad i didnt mean to say that, ill change, im sorry.. blahblahblah. so i was being all stubborn for a while but then we started talking again and it got better.
but we still fight over stupid stuff. im not saying that was stupid cuz it did hurt my feelings.
and were not the kinda of couple to give each other a lot of space...
were jealous and want to know what each other is doing. and yeahhh