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so to start i deleted all my entries because i dont like going back looking at entries about old stupid guys and idk just reading back on the old ones reminds me of a lot of bad memories that i dont need to think of.
so ive been thinking and ive decided that im a very lucky person right now. i have the guy ive always wanted. not literally, like i dont mean theres been this certain guy i was like wow i want him but i remember always thinking what i wanted in a guy, and well i have it.
so his name is brent. we met about 16 days ago and have been going out for 2 weeks today. not long, i know but its amazing how much longer it seems. it literally feels like 6 months at least. we are comfortable with each other, we tell each other everything, we even fight sometimes. well, looks... hes cute, not the hottest guy you have ever seen, if u saw him and didnt know him it would kind of be like one of those whatever things, you wouldnt be like DAMN!!! but you wouldnt be like "um EWW!" either. but to me he's become gorgeous. i like his pretty blue eyes and his perfectly straight teeth. and his little belly that has the cutest pudge. i find the littlest things hott about him, like the way he drives and how perfect his writing is and how organized he is and how he knows what he wants in life and how hes so smart and respectable to adults and doesnt care what people think.
anyway to get to the part on why i feel so lucky...
he likes me as much as i like him. he is equally attached. he calls when he says he is going to. he calls me for no reason except just to talk to me. he tells me the sweetest things.... he understands alot. he says sorry when he makes me mad. he wouldnt lie to me. he would never cheat. and does a lot for me.
the other day, i was really mad at him, and i basically hung up on him. then i tried calling him back, and he didnt answer. i was kind of freaking out, until 5 minutes later i hear a knock on my window. and its him and he forgot his phone at home.
the other day i was absent and he missed me so he wrote me a letter i thought that was really sweet.
i can get mad for the littlest reason and he still apologizes and does anything to make me feel better.
he constantly tells me how he feels about me.
hes silly and i love it.
hes responsible. he drives and works and knows what he wants in life and works hard to get it. i like that so much. hes respectable to adults and is nice to everyone.
and i love how he doesnt care about what people think and is himself. at school he hangs out with people who most would consider dorky. they are not like the complete dork kind of people they are just the smarter type of people who in ways have pretty wierd conversations. but they at least are not fake. i actuallythink its hot because it shows he doesnt judge and that he doesnt care if he is considered a nerd to everyone else in high school. and at first i joked around with him about how they were nerds, which i learned was a mistake because he really didnt like it because i did take it too far. and he didnt change a thing, and stood up for his friends in a nice way towards me. he didnt put me down for doing it just explained why he likes them pretty much.
and that saying "it comes when you least expect it...thats true....
when we met, it was through chelsea and justin. justin is pretty much brents best friend and chelsea is mine. and they are going out of course.
well justin went to brents house. i didnt expect anything at all to happen. i saw brent and i thought he was pretty cute but i not once thought hmm... which usally i would of been like hm wow not bad i should get to know them. but i just didnt expect anything to happen. by this time when it came to guys i was getting to the point where i was like "whatever i dont need a guy right now", actually the night before i was even talking about that with a good friend.
so we met and got to talking a little bit towards the end of the night.
at that point i was like "aw hes nice id talk to him more" not exactly like omgomg yesssss or anything.
so by the time i got home that night he had friend requested me on myspace and sent me a message just sayin whats up. we talked a little then got each others aim screennames, and ended up talking until about 4 in the morning. we had made plans for all of us to hang out the next day, and i was really looking forward to it
we just hung out and talked and sat in the back of his truck and i was cold so he cuddled with me.
next day we hung out again and by the end of that time i REALLY liked him. we hung out and had fun and then he asked me. and since its been wonderful and ive never been happier! im so fuckin lucky...
and i feel all mushy which is unusual for me but w/e
so ive been thinking and ive decided that im a very lucky person right now. i have the guy ive always wanted. not literally, like i dont mean theres been this certain guy i was like wow i want him but i remember always thinking what i wanted in a guy, and well i have it.
so his name is brent. we met about 16 days ago and have been going out for 2 weeks today. not long, i know but its amazing how much longer it seems. it literally feels like 6 months at least. we are comfortable with each other, we tell each other everything, we even fight sometimes. well, looks... hes cute, not the hottest guy you have ever seen, if u saw him and didnt know him it would kind of be like one of those whatever things, you wouldnt be like DAMN!!! but you wouldnt be like "um EWW!" either. but to me he's become gorgeous. i like his pretty blue eyes and his perfectly straight teeth. and his little belly that has the cutest pudge. i find the littlest things hott about him, like the way he drives and how perfect his writing is and how organized he is and how he knows what he wants in life and how hes so smart and respectable to adults and doesnt care what people think.
anyway to get to the part on why i feel so lucky...
he likes me as much as i like him. he is equally attached. he calls when he says he is going to. he calls me for no reason except just to talk to me. he tells me the sweetest things.... he understands alot. he says sorry when he makes me mad. he wouldnt lie to me. he would never cheat. and does a lot for me.
the other day, i was really mad at him, and i basically hung up on him. then i tried calling him back, and he didnt answer. i was kind of freaking out, until 5 minutes later i hear a knock on my window. and its him and he forgot his phone at home.
the other day i was absent and he missed me so he wrote me a letter i thought that was really sweet.
i can get mad for the littlest reason and he still apologizes and does anything to make me feel better.
he constantly tells me how he feels about me.
hes silly and i love it.
hes responsible. he drives and works and knows what he wants in life and works hard to get it. i like that so much. hes respectable to adults and is nice to everyone.
and i love how he doesnt care about what people think and is himself. at school he hangs out with people who most would consider dorky. they are not like the complete dork kind of people they are just the smarter type of people who in ways have pretty wierd conversations. but they at least are not fake. i actuallythink its hot because it shows he doesnt judge and that he doesnt care if he is considered a nerd to everyone else in high school. and at first i joked around with him about how they were nerds, which i learned was a mistake because he really didnt like it because i did take it too far. and he didnt change a thing, and stood up for his friends in a nice way towards me. he didnt put me down for doing it just explained why he likes them pretty much.
and that saying "it comes when you least expect it...thats true....
when we met, it was through chelsea and justin. justin is pretty much brents best friend and chelsea is mine. and they are going out of course.
well justin went to brents house. i didnt expect anything at all to happen. i saw brent and i thought he was pretty cute but i not once thought hmm... which usally i would of been like hm wow not bad i should get to know them. but i just didnt expect anything to happen. by this time when it came to guys i was getting to the point where i was like "whatever i dont need a guy right now", actually the night before i was even talking about that with a good friend.
so we met and got to talking a little bit towards the end of the night.
at that point i was like "aw hes nice id talk to him more" not exactly like omgomg yesssss or anything.
so by the time i got home that night he had friend requested me on myspace and sent me a message just sayin whats up. we talked a little then got each others aim screennames, and ended up talking until about 4 in the morning. we had made plans for all of us to hang out the next day, and i was really looking forward to it
we just hung out and talked and sat in the back of his truck and i was cold so he cuddled with me.
next day we hung out again and by the end of that time i REALLY liked him. we hung out and had fun and then he asked me. and since its been wonderful and ive never been happier! im so fuckin lucky...
and i feel all mushy which is unusual for me but w/e