the darkness of november
november 6th! wow, i keep referring to this summer as if were still the summer, or that it just ended. i guess it's officially winter coat time in new york. thanksgiving is only two weeks away and then it will be time to go back to texas for a 10 day break from new york, which i couldn't be more exicted to have.
i have really been enjoying my time here. the fun has been non-stop with megs, joey, and cate talley. i've also been hanging out with emily from work a lot. we really get along. she's 25, so she's like my big sister guide to new york city, work, fashion, etc. she also happens to be a (now official) member of the wendy's eating club which consists of me, cate talley, megs, and now emily.
today i woke up at 9:30 to take lucy on a walk and it ended up being a two hour walk. it was lovely, and now it makes me feel stupid that i am paying for a gym membership that i barely use. i guess that will be different when it gets really snowy and cold, though. there's no way i'll be going on two hour anythings when it's snowing and slushy and dark at 4:30pm. on my walk i spoke with meriel on the phone for about an hour; we hadn't spoken in a while and it was really great to hear her voice. she's been very busy with her proj proj and we had been playing phone tag for literally about three weeks. she may move to the city this summer, or at least back to connecticut to commute to the city. that would be really fun for me.
it makes me really sad to think that cate talley and megs will most likely be gone at this time next year. i know that life will go on, but it makes me so sad just to think of them not being in the same city as me. i have barely been away from cate at all in the past 4 years, and now that i have meghan back in my everyday life for the first time in 4 years, i can't imagine letting that go either.
lucy keys is so adorable and the love of my life.
everything feels different to me. everything seems so much lighter. i don't know.. i think making the decision to go on wellbutrin and paxil was the best thing that i have done for myself in years. i'm glad that i just freaked out and did it, honestly. if i had had time to think about it i probably wouldn't have ever done it. it's weird looking back on a time thinking you were stable and happy and then realizing later that you weren't at all. and it's nice to know that i won't look back on this time and feel like that. i don't know when the last time i felt like this was, or if there ever was a time that i felt like this.
oh, and i bought a treo. dork!
i have really been enjoying my time here. the fun has been non-stop with megs, joey, and cate talley. i've also been hanging out with emily from work a lot. we really get along. she's 25, so she's like my big sister guide to new york city, work, fashion, etc. she also happens to be a (now official) member of the wendy's eating club which consists of me, cate talley, megs, and now emily.
today i woke up at 9:30 to take lucy on a walk and it ended up being a two hour walk. it was lovely, and now it makes me feel stupid that i am paying for a gym membership that i barely use. i guess that will be different when it gets really snowy and cold, though. there's no way i'll be going on two hour anythings when it's snowing and slushy and dark at 4:30pm. on my walk i spoke with meriel on the phone for about an hour; we hadn't spoken in a while and it was really great to hear her voice. she's been very busy with her proj proj and we had been playing phone tag for literally about three weeks. she may move to the city this summer, or at least back to connecticut to commute to the city. that would be really fun for me.
it makes me really sad to think that cate talley and megs will most likely be gone at this time next year. i know that life will go on, but it makes me so sad just to think of them not being in the same city as me. i have barely been away from cate at all in the past 4 years, and now that i have meghan back in my everyday life for the first time in 4 years, i can't imagine letting that go either.
lucy keys is so adorable and the love of my life.
everything feels different to me. everything seems so much lighter. i don't know.. i think making the decision to go on wellbutrin and paxil was the best thing that i have done for myself in years. i'm glad that i just freaked out and did it, honestly. if i had had time to think about it i probably wouldn't have ever done it. it's weird looking back on a time thinking you were stable and happy and then realizing later that you weren't at all. and it's nice to know that i won't look back on this time and feel like that. i don't know when the last time i felt like this was, or if there ever was a time that i felt like this.
oh, and i bought a treo. dork!