Is ignorance Bliss?..........maybe......or is it?
Well, its that time again, where i remember almost everything i need to do, and then plan ahead for what i want to do. On my plate is that i want to be able to goto Japan, but i need a passport to do so. Well, when i was visiting my family down in El Paso earlyer in the week, after dinner my grandma was nice enough to run over to the post office to pick up a passport sheet for me. I just cant find it! I'm mad at that, and then I think i need a birth certificate to go along with a few other documents to finish out the process, but mine is at home (or i have to wait a few days and be out like $30 if its not there). So i have to go find a Post Office today to get that, and i have to go get tooth paste and more soap, and i would rather hang with friends and play video games or watch DVD's or something.
I'm also mad at myself because I think the waiting process on the Passport thing is a few months, and im concerned that i wont get it in time for a possible trip to japan this summer (which i wont have in time, but would love to have happen, but i dont think is going to happen). Next thing is the Study Abroad office stuff has been sitting in my room for 2 months now, and i should really get that done, well, i dont remember about it tilll i get back to my room late at night from hanging with friends or when i wake up in the morning before class, so i'm not thinking about it when i'm around it. And comes the money issue.....I am always concerned that i never have enough money to do what i want. Yes, i say its doesnt matter, which is true, but there is something deep down inside me that says it does matter if i cant do stuff when i want to. So i guess you could say that i am mentally pissed right now that i cant remember to get my stuff done when i want to, and its not as simple as writing it down, because i can always blow those writings off, i know, i've tried before.
But i guess you could say that one of the things that is keeping me from being completely despondent is the when i remember the feeling i had when i was walking around Little Tokyo with my friend Karissa over Spring Break. Oh what a time i had, and that drives me to get back that feeling of awe and wonder, and i plan on doing that by finding a way out to Japan. Somehow.
I'm also mad at myself because I think the waiting process on the Passport thing is a few months, and im concerned that i wont get it in time for a possible trip to japan this summer (which i wont have in time, but would love to have happen, but i dont think is going to happen). Next thing is the Study Abroad office stuff has been sitting in my room for 2 months now, and i should really get that done, well, i dont remember about it tilll i get back to my room late at night from hanging with friends or when i wake up in the morning before class, so i'm not thinking about it when i'm around it. And comes the money issue.....I am always concerned that i never have enough money to do what i want. Yes, i say its doesnt matter, which is true, but there is something deep down inside me that says it does matter if i cant do stuff when i want to. So i guess you could say that i am mentally pissed right now that i cant remember to get my stuff done when i want to, and its not as simple as writing it down, because i can always blow those writings off, i know, i've tried before.
But i guess you could say that one of the things that is keeping me from being completely despondent is the when i remember the feeling i had when i was walking around Little Tokyo with my friend Karissa over Spring Break. Oh what a time i had, and that drives me to get back that feeling of awe and wonder, and i plan on doing that by finding a way out to Japan. Somehow.