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everyone i know is so ridiculously happy right now its making me sick inside. its like somewhere along my journey i fucked up so badly that i dont deserve that kind of joy. maybe i'm just looking in the wrong places, or maybe im just looking, and thats the problem. no, the problem is that the one thing i want, is the one thing i cannot give to myself. its this kind of scarry, deep-end, unknowing kind of feeling that makes me want to scream. and im picky, and needy, dramatic, and self rightious. im pathetic, and i dont even know who i am anymore.
i feel like the ghost of a total stranger
i feel like the ghost of a total stranger