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So I’ve been renting the first 2 seasons of Grey’s Anatomy and can I just say I’m absolutely addicted to that show?! OMG I love it!! <33333
Ugh so remember how 2T totally left me comment not to long ago? Well I decided to be ballsy and message him Sunday night. You know Carpe diem sort of thing here. It was simple nothing complicated but he bit the bait and wrote back. Well, I responded yesterday to his message by telling him that chasing a guy wasn’t my sort of thing but I wanted to try things between us again. He read it and never responded therefore I’m done with it. Me and 2T are so not gonna happen and I’m tired of trying to make something out of it. I also noticed some girl on his page getting friendly with him so I figure he’s talking to someone else. Whatev.
The ex slept over last night. That just confused my life so much more, I knew it would though. I knew the minute I told him he could come over it was going to complicate things. I thought I was kind of over the whole break up and I thought I wouldn’t feel anything if he came over, too bad I still felt everything.. he slept over and it felt so nice and to sleep with him again and just have him there. =\
FL - he’s toned down the whole falling in love thing a bit. I kind of made it clear his whole pushing for a relationship thing was totally turning me off and I think he’s gotten the point and has been laying low. Which makes me almost miss him a little teeny bit which is a good sign I suppose.
There’s a potential boy but it’s nothing yet just harmless text flirting and I totally don’t want to jinx anything yet so I won’t talk much about him. Beside’s he’s on that slow stepping turtle tip. I can’t deal with slow steppinggggg. I’m going clubbing with my girls Thursday and he’s works at the club I’m going to so chances are I’ll be seeing him. Must remember to look hot that night, as if I don’t every time I go out. hahaha. Ok conceited moment over. :D
Anyway I think I’m going to just swear off guys forever. Unless I happen to meet some like hot, rich, sexy, prince who wants to spend like millions of dollars on me and wants to carry me away to his castle somewhere far away like in Sweden or something…otherwise I’m swearing off guys and becoming celibate.
And I've decided I'm going to try really hard to let go of any bs with anyone or anything. I'm really good at holding grudges even though I say I'm over it. I don't get over things easily and when I hate you once, chances are I'll always hate you but I promise for my own good I'm going to try to let it all go for my own sake. I'm leaving my job and starting a new one and hopefully moving into a new apartment before the end of this year so I just want a new start on everything. I'm hoping I can move before christmas, as gay as this sounds I want to have my own christmas tree and where I'm at now I can't fit no tree but hopefully when I move to a bigger place I can get one for my and dog. :D
Horror nights with my fav. girls this weekend! I can’t waitttttt. I'm totally looking foward some girl time. It's much needed!
Niptuck tonight at 10:00 on FX guys. Don’t forget! :D