May 18, 2011 19:53
I just got royally screwed over by a girl I was planning on rooming with. We found each other on my soon-to-be-college's room mate finder, and we've been chatting for days. She said, the very first time we e-mailed, that she would just love to room with me (her words, not mine.) She shared my stance on the boys, booze, and drugs (low tolerance), and she touted what a strong Christian she was. Anyway, our deadline was today, and I get an e-mail a couple hours before it that she's found a more suitable room mate. A couple hours before my deadline. The real kicker?
She got my name wrong. Quite deliberately.
I walked around my street for about ten minutes, wondering what was so terribly repulsive about me that someone would treat me like that. We had shared a number of e-mails and chatted on the phone a bit. I don't know if I was too nerdy. I don't know if it's because I talk too much. I don't know if she took issue with the high school I attend (it's well known here for its liberal and welcoming stance toward people of all races and orientations). Heck, I don't even know if it's just because I seem like the laid-back, push-over kind of person who would let something like that slide.
But I quit wondering what a terrible person I am, and texted her. In plain terms, I told that bitch where she could shove it with her fake attitude.
I'm proud of myself. Usually I try to rationalize why others treat me like crap. I come up with excuses for them. But this was too much - the audacity of this broad just blew me away. I received an e-mail from her afterwards... she haughtily told me how much she didn't "appreciate" my text, and how she was so disappointed she was to see a "Christian" act that way to another. What's the point in replying to that steaming pile of dung?
I really hate when people who share my faith try to use it as a mask. Just because you're Christian doesn't mean you can get away with treating others like dirt if they are 'lesser' than you in any way. I prefer people to just tell others what they think, rather than coming up with creative ways to toy with them.
I'm done alternating between mopey and angry. I'm trusting that everything will be awesome in the end - that I will get a fantastic room mate through the random selection process. I know one thing for sure, though - that girl has lost out on having a good friend.