Unquestionably retarded...
I haven't been in here for a while. I feel like I'm neglecting the world, but also feel like no one gives a shit...all at the same time.
I'm a bitch. I don't want to go into it, but I am a bitch.
I realized yesterday that for the first time in my life I have NO idea what I want...or maybe I just realized it again. BUT early this morning I realized that I miss my best friend. I haven't seen him or talked to him since Sunday evening. How the fuck can I go weeks without talking to my family and feel fine about it, but when it comes to Mike I feel like I'm gagging on the air I breathe if I don't talk to him more than once every other day? Strange.
I know he's okay because I stopped by Denny's and Christ told me that he had been there. I also know that he knocked on my door and I was pretty much told NOT to answer the door. I REALLY don't want to go into it though.
::sigh::
I spent some really thinking time at Denny's after I searched all over the usual places to find Mike. I wrote him the longest letter in the world...I don't know if I'll give it to him though. I'm retarded like that...it just means too much and I don't want to fuck up my life even more on account of how I feel.
Phil gave me some money. I feel so sick about taking it, but everything is making me sick right now.
Fuck this.
I'm a bitch. I don't want to go into it, but I am a bitch.
I realized yesterday that for the first time in my life I have NO idea what I want...or maybe I just realized it again. BUT early this morning I realized that I miss my best friend. I haven't seen him or talked to him since Sunday evening. How the fuck can I go weeks without talking to my family and feel fine about it, but when it comes to Mike I feel like I'm gagging on the air I breathe if I don't talk to him more than once every other day? Strange.
I know he's okay because I stopped by Denny's and Christ told me that he had been there. I also know that he knocked on my door and I was pretty much told NOT to answer the door. I REALLY don't want to go into it though.
::sigh::
I spent some really thinking time at Denny's after I searched all over the usual places to find Mike. I wrote him the longest letter in the world...I don't know if I'll give it to him though. I'm retarded like that...it just means too much and I don't want to fuck up my life even more on account of how I feel.
Phil gave me some money. I feel so sick about taking it, but everything is making me sick right now.
Fuck this.