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Deal journal.
after a slight argument and misunderstandings turning into understandings i fell asleep tightly in danas arms as the rain washed the city out.
it was the greatest comfort i've had in a long time.
but he is still confusing, awkward and distanct we were so close once. now i just spend the night. and not even for sex. usually just sleep.
its me too. im farther from myself and farther from him. he wants me to be great. i will be.
i hope this guy lets me apprentice with him.
that would be exactly what i need. i could go somewhere looking like this with that.
dana awkwardly invited me to his work christmas party. like pulling teeth. like he just didn't want to go alone but i am not who hed really prefer to not be alone with.
i need to not feel so negatively. he is figuring shit out too.
i want to drink more. and have more sex.
and make art effortlessly and not wanna smoke a cigarette to admire. but i do.
i took a long walk.
i let the rain wash my soul today.
it was a good day.
after a slight argument and misunderstandings turning into understandings i fell asleep tightly in danas arms as the rain washed the city out.
it was the greatest comfort i've had in a long time.
but he is still confusing, awkward and distanct we were so close once. now i just spend the night. and not even for sex. usually just sleep.
its me too. im farther from myself and farther from him. he wants me to be great. i will be.
i hope this guy lets me apprentice with him.
that would be exactly what i need. i could go somewhere looking like this with that.
dana awkwardly invited me to his work christmas party. like pulling teeth. like he just didn't want to go alone but i am not who hed really prefer to not be alone with.
i need to not feel so negatively. he is figuring shit out too.
i want to drink more. and have more sex.
and make art effortlessly and not wanna smoke a cigarette to admire. but i do.
i took a long walk.
i let the rain wash my soul today.
it was a good day.