stuck in a rut(for the past 5 years)
i've been reading my early(circa 2004-06) entries, and i've realized how corny i sound. i've also noticed that i had a lot more to say during that time than i do now, the cause of which must be the fact that all i do in this office is crunch numbers and get cheques from customers. it just doesn't feel right to strike up a conversation from someone you're waiting to take money from. but that's just me and my twisted sense and sensibility.
why don't i do sales? maybe because i'm not the folksy kind of person who can, as the idiom goes - make partnerships with potential customers(or should that be potential partners?). i think i'm lacking the basic social skills that usually goes into making sales. i could make an effort i guess, but i'd rather leave that kind of stuff to people who actually like people in general.
isn't it weird that after all these years the basic theme of my posts are still the same? i've been whining about the same thing for probably 5 years now, and i don't really see a resolution to this other than me getting kicked out of this office and left to fend for myself, or being abducted by aliens, or maybe win the lottery(but in that case all i can foresee is my parents getting the money and pouring it all back into the business in a sincere, albeit misguided thought that it would actually be what i want to do with my money). or maybe i can just stop whining and tell my parents once and for all that i don't want to stay here any longer(and i've been saying it in my head for the last 5 years so i should be quite proficient at saying it, if i ever do).
btw, i'm going to start a 365 day thingie where i post a picture a day(if i ever find time in my oh-so-busy schedule *sarcasm*). i was thinking of actually doing it simultaneously with an attempt to write out 50,000 words in a year, like a nanowrimo, except extended, and provided in little snippets below said pictures. i'd probably put it in a tumblr account though, just so it won't be tainted by my obsessive whining and overall pessimism in this lj account. :P
why don't i do sales? maybe because i'm not the folksy kind of person who can, as the idiom goes - make partnerships with potential customers(or should that be potential partners?). i think i'm lacking the basic social skills that usually goes into making sales. i could make an effort i guess, but i'd rather leave that kind of stuff to people who actually like people in general.
isn't it weird that after all these years the basic theme of my posts are still the same? i've been whining about the same thing for probably 5 years now, and i don't really see a resolution to this other than me getting kicked out of this office and left to fend for myself, or being abducted by aliens, or maybe win the lottery(but in that case all i can foresee is my parents getting the money and pouring it all back into the business in a sincere, albeit misguided thought that it would actually be what i want to do with my money). or maybe i can just stop whining and tell my parents once and for all that i don't want to stay here any longer(and i've been saying it in my head for the last 5 years so i should be quite proficient at saying it, if i ever do).
btw, i'm going to start a 365 day thingie where i post a picture a day(if i ever find time in my oh-so-busy schedule *sarcasm*). i was thinking of actually doing it simultaneously with an attempt to write out 50,000 words in a year, like a nanowrimo, except extended, and provided in little snippets below said pictures. i'd probably put it in a tumblr account though, just so it won't be tainted by my obsessive whining and overall pessimism in this lj account. :P