giving up...
i feel like giving up, i want her back, but it doesn't matter. she doesn't want to come back it feels like so often now. even if she did i couldn't let her come back now. she wouldn't be happy. i changed for her when she left, and after she left i was crushed. it's been hard to keep the change going w/o her around, but i have to change even if i'm not going to get her back. it's been easier lately to take care of things around the place, i could still do better. I am better then i used to be.. i don't do the change for her anymore though, i do it for myself. she got me started, i give her credit for that, i only wish i'd done it sooner, i've never felt so alone in my life as i have since she left.
/sigh
god i miss you nicole, i miss your laughter, and being able to hug you and t alk to you in person. i miss your "innocence" and the way you acted like the sea-gulls from finding nemo..
/sigh
5 months is a long time, i am starting to doubt she'll ever come back, or that she even wants to anymore.
screw it, i'm going to bed, it's 7am.
her roommate has no idea how lucky he is to have her around..
/sigh
god i miss you nicole, i miss your laughter, and being able to hug you and t alk to you in person. i miss your "innocence" and the way you acted like the sea-gulls from finding nemo..
/sigh
5 months is a long time, i am starting to doubt she'll ever come back, or that she even wants to anymore.
screw it, i'm going to bed, it's 7am.
her roommate has no idea how lucky he is to have her around..