manipulative people are not cool
I'm supposed to be writing a senior sem paper, but I'm having an awful lot of trouble getting it done.
I had a weird night last night. That's where the title comes from. I am not accusing the person I was hanging out with of being so, but I believe there is a distinct possibility he was trying to be
...if he was though, the problem is that other thanbeing left in utter confusion, I was not terribly concerned about what happened. It's a long story, and I'm not going to get into it...nor will I probably tell anyone who asks...a select few know about it, but I'm not going to share with everyone. Hope I didnt' excite anyone's curiosity too bad...I just felt that if I had not said it before, i say it now.
Manipulative people are just not cool. I've let myself be manipulated too many times...I hate it. I feel foolish and ridiculous, and I'm sick to death of feeling like that. I'm a relatively intelligent, usually strong woman and I should not be played with and will not allow myself to be so again. So screw anyone who thinks he can play with my feelings...it will not happen again. I've been through it too many times, so I know the signs.
At this point i'm even sick of the things that are meant to be playful...they still make me feel foolish and i don't like it. I'm sick of seeing the smile on his face (his--not specific to one person) when he thinks he's gotten me..that he's beat me and he's better in whatever way.
I want to make sure it's clear that I am not refering to any specific person in this entry (aside from the beginning) If it isn't clear I'm sorry...it is not meant to be an attack...just an honest expression of past feelings I have had. I haven't had them recently...but I just realized how much I dislike the feeling of being manipulated in general. i feel that I've let myself be so all too often and I don't like it. This is self-awareness coming out and me deciding that I won't let it happen again. Not me attacking anyone in particular
In the beginning of the entry I was refering to a possibility...NOT making that accusation
Okay..time to really work and get this thing done.
I had a weird night last night. That's where the title comes from. I am not accusing the person I was hanging out with of being so, but I believe there is a distinct possibility he was trying to be
...if he was though, the problem is that other thanbeing left in utter confusion, I was not terribly concerned about what happened. It's a long story, and I'm not going to get into it...nor will I probably tell anyone who asks...a select few know about it, but I'm not going to share with everyone. Hope I didnt' excite anyone's curiosity too bad...I just felt that if I had not said it before, i say it now.
Manipulative people are just not cool. I've let myself be manipulated too many times...I hate it. I feel foolish and ridiculous, and I'm sick to death of feeling like that. I'm a relatively intelligent, usually strong woman and I should not be played with and will not allow myself to be so again. So screw anyone who thinks he can play with my feelings...it will not happen again. I've been through it too many times, so I know the signs.
At this point i'm even sick of the things that are meant to be playful...they still make me feel foolish and i don't like it. I'm sick of seeing the smile on his face (his--not specific to one person) when he thinks he's gotten me..that he's beat me and he's better in whatever way.
I want to make sure it's clear that I am not refering to any specific person in this entry (aside from the beginning) If it isn't clear I'm sorry...it is not meant to be an attack...just an honest expression of past feelings I have had. I haven't had them recently...but I just realized how much I dislike the feeling of being manipulated in general. i feel that I've let myself be so all too often and I don't like it. This is self-awareness coming out and me deciding that I won't let it happen again. Not me attacking anyone in particular
In the beginning of the entry I was refering to a possibility...NOT making that accusation
Okay..time to really work and get this thing done.