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A weird occurance just happened.
Ann and I just finished eating and we had a knock at our door. I go to check and its an elderly black lady with no teeth. Although I cant understand what she is saying because boogie will not stop barking, I believe she mumbled something about getting something to eat. I almost on instinct said "we dont have any" and walked away.
But things make this complicated and very sad to me. While we were eating, I remembered thinking, "wow do we eat alot of food". I mean Im probably 20 lbs over weight, because I eat quite well. Its pretty insane when you read about the amount of food that people eat in other countries, and how people will work 10 hours on maybe 2 loafs of bread and some soup.
What also came to mind was the soviet history I have been reading. Ive been reading and learning alot about soviet policies and conditions in the Soviet Union. This always gives me insight about the conditions of the poor and why its a problem in our country. In this country everyone's mindset is, no one can touch or take what is mine because it is mine and sharing is stupid. I just realized that even if I dont agree with this, I reacted on instinct in this mindframe when I had to deal with the situation.
Due to the randomness of it, I even got the feeling that maybe it was the "jesus" myth, that jesus would randomly show up in your life in a random form, asking for help. Although I dont believe this, it crossed my mind almost instantly.
I definately feel wrong for what I did, in a new situation I reacted badly without thinking about what I should have done. I mean its really sad to say that Americans are more likely to give money to a charity, where its a middle class or upper class americans running the organization, than to give anything to the homeless themselves, which is to have far more effect on an individuals life.
I dont know. I guess I dont make what I want to say very clear, but the world's not right and not enough people who have the ability to make a difference care, and thats where the problem is.
Ann and I just finished eating and we had a knock at our door. I go to check and its an elderly black lady with no teeth. Although I cant understand what she is saying because boogie will not stop barking, I believe she mumbled something about getting something to eat. I almost on instinct said "we dont have any" and walked away.
But things make this complicated and very sad to me. While we were eating, I remembered thinking, "wow do we eat alot of food". I mean Im probably 20 lbs over weight, because I eat quite well. Its pretty insane when you read about the amount of food that people eat in other countries, and how people will work 10 hours on maybe 2 loafs of bread and some soup.
What also came to mind was the soviet history I have been reading. Ive been reading and learning alot about soviet policies and conditions in the Soviet Union. This always gives me insight about the conditions of the poor and why its a problem in our country. In this country everyone's mindset is, no one can touch or take what is mine because it is mine and sharing is stupid. I just realized that even if I dont agree with this, I reacted on instinct in this mindframe when I had to deal with the situation.
Due to the randomness of it, I even got the feeling that maybe it was the "jesus" myth, that jesus would randomly show up in your life in a random form, asking for help. Although I dont believe this, it crossed my mind almost instantly.
I definately feel wrong for what I did, in a new situation I reacted badly without thinking about what I should have done. I mean its really sad to say that Americans are more likely to give money to a charity, where its a middle class or upper class americans running the organization, than to give anything to the homeless themselves, which is to have far more effect on an individuals life.
I dont know. I guess I dont make what I want to say very clear, but the world's not right and not enough people who have the ability to make a difference care, and thats where the problem is.