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wow is all i can say i am saddened and shocked... friday was just incredibly shitty..... it started off great me, amanda, jessica, ryan and ashley went to lakeside mall and it was fun me, amanda and jessica raced ryan and ashley back to my house and ryan thought he knew a faster way so he passed me up and missed the turn which is much easier then his way so we won and i got home... and my brother yelled up to me.... " do u know justin mazmanian " i was like " yeah why " and my brother does " he died tonight " and right when he said that i couldnt believe it at all i was in shock pretty much.. so we all went to nicolai and everyone waited int he car and i went inside nicolais and it was dead silent in his basement and thats when i knew the news was for real and alls i could think of is seeing jjustin in school that same day talkin to our group of friends.... he died of a heart attack.... why is it the worst happens to the best i dont get it. i wasnt as close to him as all my other friends were but i was hurt by his death..... i missed the viewing and funeral but i went to the vigel held for him at our school where the coaches of the football and basketball teams spoke and then the mic was open to anyone to share a justin story... after that we all lit our candles and walked around the school alot of us stopped by his locker and sat in a moment of silence... then made our way to the gym and the candles lit the whole gym up and we had a moment of silence..... it was extremely sad :-( heres a poem someone wrote
Another day passed,
Never again see your face.
Merely a spirit,
Forever living in these broken hearts.
You left too soon,
And can't come back.
We miss you already,
Heaven took you too soon.
Only a junior,
A whole life ahead.
Sports to play,
Games to win.
College, family.
You'll be missed greatly,
But never forgotten.
A spirit never broken,
Forever living through those you touched-
With your kindness,
Your love,
Your joy,
Your greatness.
You came for a while and now you're gone.
You left us here with the memories.
Memories of happiness,
Memories of tears.
You help us through our fears,
Our fears of losing someone we love.
I know you're looking down on us,
With that silly little smirk.
No matter how bad a day was going,
You could make it better.
You didn't care about popularity,
Or if I was a freshmen,
You were still there for me.
I would give anything though,
To see you at church on Sunday.
To go to school,
Knowing I'll see you before 7th hour,
That I'll pass by your locker and see your smiling face,
That I'll walk by and get a hug,
And you'll mess up my hair.
I would give anything,
To just have 5 more minutes with you,
To say goodbye,
So you could tell me it would be alright,
So I could know for sure.
Because right now,
I'm missin you so bad.
I can't eat,
I can't sleep.
I just want to die,
So I could know I would see you soon.
So I could know I would be with you forever.
But for now I’ll live on,
And as long as I’m here on earth,
A part of you will be too.
You’ll be living forever in my heart.
Rest In Peace,
Look down on us forever,
Until we may see you again.
Because heaven got jealous,
Saw you were doin' too much good,
And had to take you away from all of us.
We love you Justin
Rest In Peace Justin " the armenian wonder" Mazmanian
we all love you and miss you