Second Place...
***i just realized how insanely long its been since i used this thing... and am shocked that i remembered my login and password.***
Anyone else out there feel that they can only come in second?
No matter how hard you try sometimes you just end up well... in second...
That’s how I feel about relationships.
The first time this thought occurred to me, I immediately discounted it thinking: "well... why should I let this one experience keep me down, think positive." I was right in thinking that, and it helped me to move on and grow as a person, but... damn... it hurts.
Im realizing that now (the third time) maybe I should start becoming upset. I should start being allot more vocal and expressive of how I feel about the person and the way im being treated. At the first sign of being pushed off or set to the side I need to have the strength to leave that situation. At that point, I need to start watching out for myself and my feelings. By then it should be pretty evident that the other person probably won’t later on. I realize it hurts for all that are involved and not just me and its hard for everyone in that situation, but it seems that I always get the tsunami punch in the face and everyone else just gets grazed by a warm summer wind with maybe a distasteful stench in the air.
I hope im making sense to whoever reads this.
Nice guys finish last right? Well maybe I can still be the nice guy, only this time im walking out with my dignity and what’s left of my heart in one piece!
then again... maybe this time will be diffent...