even more conconfused

[brad328]

The past few months i have also been thinking alot! I have found answers to alot of things but not the things thst make me happy! Its wrong how you say peopele changed, because thats not true at all! I never changed inside, just my actions changed! It has never come to a point where I didnt love you more than anything and I wouldndt do anything in the world for you! And another thing love is not something you claim to do, its something you cant help do! I told you everynight that I Loved You, and just like you say, if I didnt mean it I wouldnt say it. Yes, situations come around sometimes that make the heart grow hard, but underneath it all thers still love. And yes, I would do anything to get you back, but the affection that I am showing you is not just for that! You wont believe me when I tell you how much I love you, so every day for as long as I live I am going to prove it to you! You say you dont know how to change yourself, well see the real me and whats underneath it all like you did at the beginning. Dont see me for the way I was when I got cold hearted. There was hurt on both sides. Then you say that your not sure that you should change back, why is that? You have to understand that the good in our relationship outweighs the bad and there were way more laughs than cries. Forgive me for what I've done! I forgive you! Dont feel lonely because I love you more than anything ever, even if it wasnt always shown the best! Love has to be built off faith, which is believing without seeing! Not off of actions! If for once ever you could sit there and say that I didnt love you, then you never really knew me! There are many times I questioned if you really loved me but I had to believe it with my heart and hope that you truely meant it when you said it! I still believe you love me even though most of the time now its really hard to! I still have hope though! Hope is something you have to creat for yourself and I have! By this I'm saying that one day I think that you will see me for the real person that I am and not the way you see me right now! Dont hate yourself for the way I feel! Enjoy having someone love you this much, its not a bad thing to have! If you hate yourself for me then I hate myself for making you have those feelings! And you do know exactly how to make me happy! Just have faith and hope about it and I promise it will all work out for the best! Dont love me for not hating you either, I could never hate you, that would be rediculous! I'll always love you for as long as I am breathing! I know you dont want to hurt me and I never wanted to hurt you but sometimes you have to forgive those things and come back to the things that make you strong and hold you together, which for me is you! I forgive you for hurting me and just because you have hurt me doesnt mean I am going to quit trying though! I promised you I would never quit and promises are meant to be kept, not broken! I know in my heart that the love I have for you is endless and wont change! I will have hope for the both of us until you find it! I will be strong for the both of us until we can be strong together! I will love for the both of us until you see the love that I really have for you! I wont break and I wont quit! I'll hold strong and I wont let go! I'll be there for you for everything, just to talk or to give my life! I love you this much! Know that without you I am nothing, but with you I have the world spinning on my finger! I feel like we danced the dance but never finish the song, please dont let it be this way forever! Dont let our story go unfinished! I love you forever!
Love,
Me