find out who you are and do it on purpose
its not like i never wanted this time to come, i did. but now i have no idea what to do with myself. yeah, i'm going to school in the fall but i have no idea if its where i should go or what i should do. i feel like i'm just doing it because it seems right and it seems like the only way i'll get anywhere in this fast paced world we live in. i've decided to give it my best shot and get everything out of college i can.
a friend of mine went to school thinking the same thing i did from the get go and he just couldn't get it out of his head that he was there because he had to be. he basically flunked out. totally not where i want to be headed. don't get me wrong i love him to death but i think he could have made somewhat of a better decision. but now i'm happy for him because he could possibly be getting a job where my dad works that he will love and be really into and i think that will be a good change for him, i really do.
i'm still in a state of shock that i'm done with that thing called high school. it seemed to fly by and it really hasn't set in yet how much things are going to change. i went through all the motions of prom and graduation and all those 'senior things' but it just doesn't seem like its trufuly happening that i'm not going to see a lot of those kids that i saw every day of my life for a long time, or even ever again. honestly though, i don't think i really care its not like any of them ever gave a damn about me. i'm going to be doing something totally different than what i have for the past four years. i'm sure it will be crazy at first but i think i'm going to really like the change.
summer is amazing. i love everything about it and for whatever reason it seems to pass me by so quickly. at the beginning of summer i always say i'm going to do a million and one things and i make this huge mental list in my head. i'm forever adding things to it, but it never seems that i get to the end, or even near the end. i've done a whole mess of things so far, but nothing that has really meant anything to me. maybe i'm just looking in all the wrong places.
spent most of the day with my dad hiking at beltzville and i really got into and realized how much i love being outside in nature. we went down by the falls and i just stopped for a few minutes and stared into them. it was really nice. i was so mesmerized by it. its weird, i live with him and see him every single day, but i don't really spend that much time with my dad. so it was nice to finally spend some time with him, just the two of us.
a friend of mine went to school thinking the same thing i did from the get go and he just couldn't get it out of his head that he was there because he had to be. he basically flunked out. totally not where i want to be headed. don't get me wrong i love him to death but i think he could have made somewhat of a better decision. but now i'm happy for him because he could possibly be getting a job where my dad works that he will love and be really into and i think that will be a good change for him, i really do.
i'm still in a state of shock that i'm done with that thing called high school. it seemed to fly by and it really hasn't set in yet how much things are going to change. i went through all the motions of prom and graduation and all those 'senior things' but it just doesn't seem like its trufuly happening that i'm not going to see a lot of those kids that i saw every day of my life for a long time, or even ever again. honestly though, i don't think i really care its not like any of them ever gave a damn about me. i'm going to be doing something totally different than what i have for the past four years. i'm sure it will be crazy at first but i think i'm going to really like the change.
summer is amazing. i love everything about it and for whatever reason it seems to pass me by so quickly. at the beginning of summer i always say i'm going to do a million and one things and i make this huge mental list in my head. i'm forever adding things to it, but it never seems that i get to the end, or even near the end. i've done a whole mess of things so far, but nothing that has really meant anything to me. maybe i'm just looking in all the wrong places.
spent most of the day with my dad hiking at beltzville and i really got into and realized how much i love being outside in nature. we went down by the falls and i just stopped for a few minutes and stared into them. it was really nice. i was so mesmerized by it. its weird, i live with him and see him every single day, but i don't really spend that much time with my dad. so it was nice to finally spend some time with him, just the two of us.