This may never start, we could fall apart.
OK. So this past weekend was absolutely PHENOMENAL. I was supposed to go to visit Kyle, but that didn't work out because of the transportation situation. AKA me not having a license/car. Which basically sucks because I was SO excited to go see him. So since I still had the entire weekend off, I decided to go to Fredonia and visit there.
That was probably the most fun weekend I have ever had in Fredonia. SO SO much fun. I got there around 3pm on Friday, and just hung out with Kristin and Suz for a while. I ran into Brian and went over to Chautauqua to visit people with him. I didn't tell anyone that I was visiting except for Kristin, Suz, and Brittany, so everyone was really surprised. lol.
Then me and the girls in our hallway got ready to go out, and Me, Kristin and Suz went to 154 like old times. It was absolutely amazing. I really missed walking through the doors and being greeted by 25-30 drunk people. Haha. And it was even worse because no one knew I was coming..so the reactions were awesome. And I met this boy there...he's a transfer student from ECC and he lives in East Aurora. His name is Jonathan. Now, when I first met him, I thought he was really hott, and he fucking is, but nothing really crossed my mind other than that. I wasn't about to start talking to him and all that stuff. But HE started talking to ME. Then I found out that he moved into Jonny and Danny's suite.
So that night was good. I was pretty drunk, as I usually am at 154. The next morning the girls and I went to Erie for some B-fast. It was glorious. Then we just hung around. I got a call from Danny saying that, apparently Jonathan had been asking about me after he found out that me and Danny were so close. Hmmm...
So a huge group of us went to this house party on Saturday night. It was my first ever encounter with Jungle Juice. Let me just say, that shit FUCKS YOU UP. But it's really good. That's why you get so drunk lol you can't stop drinking it because you can't taste the insane amount of booze in it.
But anyways. Jonathan pretty much lays it out that he thinks I'm adorable, have the most gorgeous blue eyes, and the cutest laugh. FYI- I hate my laugh. Why do guys like it? I think it's annoying. ANYWAYS. I'm just gonna cut to the chase...lol we made out hardcore later that night and I slept in his bed.
But don't jump to any conclusions. I have thusfar in my life kept my legs closed, and have still, thank you very much =) You want to know what I really like about Jonathan though? He didn't even try anything. NOTHING. He didn't even go anywhere near my butt. And we talked for a really long time that night too, and he's a really interesting person. It only helps that he's the most gorgeous person I've ever met.
Oh and guess what his major is.....PreDental Biology. WTF?!?! lol. I was sOOOOO not expecting that from him. He said he wanted to go PreMed, but it was too hard and too long to be in school. Word to that, yo.
So it was a great weekend. But now I don't know what to do. I figured that if Jonathan didn't show any interest after I left Fredonia this weekend, I'd peg it as just a hook up and leave it at that, but he texted me after I left telling me that he was glad he met me and that he's sad that I don't still go there...and then he IMed me when I got home and we talked for a while.
But what about Kyle? I mean, this weekend was going to be about HIM to begin with. I know that I don't have any attachments to him, and that we aren't together, and that I'm still single and can do what I want. But I don't know. There's still a small part of me that feels awkwardly guilty about Jonathan.
BUT I LIKE HIM TOO.
Fuck this. lol. I hate being torn. I know this isn't really a huge deal, but...ehhh. Haha when I explained all of this to Brittany she said, "Well you can live a double life! You have a guaranteed hook up in Syracuse AND one in Fredonia! Be happy!!"
LMAO. She would say that. Idk. I guess we shall see where each road leads. Its kind of like Pocahontas lol. The part where she's singing "Just Around the Riverbend" and shes at the part of the river wwhere it separates and one part is smooth and the other is rough. Only I'm not sure which boy is which part of the river lol.
Hmmm that was quite long ha. Kudos to you if you've lasted this long =)
loveyous.
Things I'm Grateful for:
jason mraz.
AWESOME friends no matter where I go.
154.
Tylenol.
good smelling candles.
MySpace Tom for having a Facebook too. He's fucking sweet.