Hmm
Its weird that people only post on their journals when things are going shitty....
Luckily for me, if life had been any better for me so far, Joe Walsh would write a song about me.
But, now that I think about it, people also post on these when they're bored.... and I guess that does strike me perfect.
Either way, I think I'll talk about philosophical shit like I normally do.
Letting go is one of those things that every human struggles with in one way or another.
Recently, I had a dream, more than likely inspired by The Dark Knight, about being severely burnt and losing half of my face to remain scarred for the rest of my life. In the dream, I had recently decided that my imaginary relationship should end, but the accident put me in a position where I wouldn't be able to date again, so I decided to stick with it rather than be alone. When I looked at myself in the mirror, it was so terrifying that I started sobbing uncontrollably and began convincing myself that it was just a bad dream, to which I woke up.
I never felt so scared in my life before. I don't know what it was, whether I was afraid of having to let go of who I was, or whether it was a fear of committment that I wasn't able to make.
I know its shallow, but I think if something like this were to happen to me, I would lose who I am as a person. I wouldn't be nearly as confident, I wouldn't be able to think of women the same way I do, I would never be able to convince myself that they might be interested in me.
One of my biggest fears is of entrapment, a fear of not being able to physically control my life, but now that I think of this dream, I look at it in a whole new way. I don't want to ever trap myself in a relationship or a friendship, like I know I've done before, yet at the same time, I'm so overeager to meet new people and make new friends that sometimes I convince myself I like somebody who I would normally find intollerable and just don't realize it.
I don't know, its all just a bit odd coming at a time where I'm so close to starting college, I don't want my opportunity limited in anyway, but I don't want to end up trapping myself either.
What would you do if half of your face was burnt off?
Luckily for me, if life had been any better for me so far, Joe Walsh would write a song about me.
But, now that I think about it, people also post on these when they're bored.... and I guess that does strike me perfect.
Either way, I think I'll talk about philosophical shit like I normally do.
Letting go is one of those things that every human struggles with in one way or another.
Recently, I had a dream, more than likely inspired by The Dark Knight, about being severely burnt and losing half of my face to remain scarred for the rest of my life. In the dream, I had recently decided that my imaginary relationship should end, but the accident put me in a position where I wouldn't be able to date again, so I decided to stick with it rather than be alone. When I looked at myself in the mirror, it was so terrifying that I started sobbing uncontrollably and began convincing myself that it was just a bad dream, to which I woke up.
I never felt so scared in my life before. I don't know what it was, whether I was afraid of having to let go of who I was, or whether it was a fear of committment that I wasn't able to make.
I know its shallow, but I think if something like this were to happen to me, I would lose who I am as a person. I wouldn't be nearly as confident, I wouldn't be able to think of women the same way I do, I would never be able to convince myself that they might be interested in me.
One of my biggest fears is of entrapment, a fear of not being able to physically control my life, but now that I think of this dream, I look at it in a whole new way. I don't want to ever trap myself in a relationship or a friendship, like I know I've done before, yet at the same time, I'm so overeager to meet new people and make new friends that sometimes I convince myself I like somebody who I would normally find intollerable and just don't realize it.
I don't know, its all just a bit odd coming at a time where I'm so close to starting college, I don't want my opportunity limited in anyway, but I don't want to end up trapping myself either.
What would you do if half of your face was burnt off?