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Me, Dustin, and Jason.... The three amigos. Everyone that hangs out with us knows us as that. Yet....
It’s there but we just don’t talk about it.
There’s three of us right now, but there was once four. Me, Dustin, Jason, and Carlen.
It’s somthing that we never talk about, but it’s there, and it always will be. It’s the reason i can’t sleep without nightmares, the reason we can’t say no, and the reason we can’t hang out sober. Death affects me more than anything i’ve ever endured. It’s the reason i wake up wanting a drink, it’s the reason i need escape from reality, and you can ignore it all you want, but this is me being honest. I know what it feels like to have people betray you, i know what it feels like to be made fun of, abused in every way, and feel every negative emotion, but nothing compares to seeing someone you love dead. Those images haunt me!
I miss my Dad, i miss my grandpa, i miss Murray, i miss Carlen, and most of all i wish i was dead with them. I can’t sleep without hell, and i can’t live without hell.
A great person once said "I hate myself and i want to die". Well, here’s my version!
I hate life and i want to die.
We will have the same end.
It’s there but we just don’t talk about it.
There’s three of us right now, but there was once four. Me, Dustin, Jason, and Carlen.
It’s somthing that we never talk about, but it’s there, and it always will be. It’s the reason i can’t sleep without nightmares, the reason we can’t say no, and the reason we can’t hang out sober. Death affects me more than anything i’ve ever endured. It’s the reason i wake up wanting a drink, it’s the reason i need escape from reality, and you can ignore it all you want, but this is me being honest. I know what it feels like to have people betray you, i know what it feels like to be made fun of, abused in every way, and feel every negative emotion, but nothing compares to seeing someone you love dead. Those images haunt me!
I miss my Dad, i miss my grandpa, i miss Murray, i miss Carlen, and most of all i wish i was dead with them. I can’t sleep without hell, and i can’t live without hell.
A great person once said "I hate myself and i want to die". Well, here’s my version!
I hate life and i want to die.
We will have the same end.