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Im just so tired and jaded by this,
that i cant defend us anymore.
i give up.
with the full knowledge that im gone from you
what will you do with it?
you will weave deeper your web of lies.
when you do, free me in the process.
poor kid.
confused?
id rather be confused in feelings
than confused as to what is so wrong about me.
i was stuck in this state of believing you were different, and defending everything about us against all the outsiders because they didnt know you, and couldnt know how this was.
im sure now, that my defenses were useless
because everything they said, is exactly how this was.
unless you are going to come clean
and stop fueling your lies
dont tell me you need me, want me, or miss me.
if you needed me that badly,
youd be here with me.
im slipping.
quickly.
i cant hold on.