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we all want what we can't have. RIGHT?
well.
if i want something.
and i can't have it, i take it.
camron gabby and mallory and I
pretty much own at that sort of thing.
HOWEVER,
that skill would be much more useful
if i could apply it to my life.
seeing someone i want, and knowing that i can't have them
makes me want him even more.
it makes me wonder if he loves me enough
to come with me, and forget everything.
BUT
he's not that kind of a person.
and apparently i'm not good enough
to capture his attention away from
someone that i don't find deserving of him
or good for him.
it's not who all of you are thinking it is. TRUST ME.
none. of. you. know.
=[
it just sucks tremendously.
especially when you've got someone
offering you more of a relationship than you
are pretty sure you could ever have with the other one, the one
you can't forget, yet you can't even look at this tangible person right
in front of you, because the entire time you're kissing him
you're thinking about the other one.
and every time you talk to the other one
you just want to tell him everything you've been doing
with other people, in the hopes that it would make him see
that you can't wait any longer.
god damn.
Courtney may be the only one
who knows what this kind of feeling is like.
the feeling that says over and over again
"He slept with you, but apparently you're not
good enough for him."
fuck.
well.
if i want something.
and i can't have it, i take it.
camron gabby and mallory and I
pretty much own at that sort of thing.
HOWEVER,
that skill would be much more useful
if i could apply it to my life.
seeing someone i want, and knowing that i can't have them
makes me want him even more.
it makes me wonder if he loves me enough
to come with me, and forget everything.
BUT
he's not that kind of a person.
and apparently i'm not good enough
to capture his attention away from
someone that i don't find deserving of him
or good for him.
it's not who all of you are thinking it is. TRUST ME.
none. of. you. know.
=[
it just sucks tremendously.
especially when you've got someone
offering you more of a relationship than you
are pretty sure you could ever have with the other one, the one
you can't forget, yet you can't even look at this tangible person right
in front of you, because the entire time you're kissing him
you're thinking about the other one.
and every time you talk to the other one
you just want to tell him everything you've been doing
with other people, in the hopes that it would make him see
that you can't wait any longer.
god damn.
Courtney may be the only one
who knows what this kind of feeling is like.
the feeling that says over and over again
"He slept with you, but apparently you're not
good enough for him."
fuck.