lets go back; [back to the beginning]*<3
hey eveyone.
so some of you dont know and some do
i went upstate for this girls state thing, which by the way was the best time ive had in a while. i met some awesome girls and i cant wait to see those chicks again:)
while i was down there i found out that my bf cheated on me with a girl who was supposed to be my friend.
to put it lightly, i was crushed
theres really no other way to say it
and id be a liar if i said i wasnt upset about it
the thing that upset me the most though was that he initiated us going out in the first place and then he went and hooked up with a whore.
like a really dirty whore
a whore who has a 6person train in one night
and has sex with 4 guys in 2 hours
I MEAN DIRTY.
cant emphasize that enough.
so yea i cried about it for a day or 2 and then i realized that we werent even going out that long for me to be THAT upset about it. i mean yes i do have a right but at least i found out sooner than later.
so right now i havent talked to him in like a week and i am ruining the girls life. like seriously. no beatings involved, because she deserves much worse than that. so i basically have the whole entire school on my side and everyone hates her and so life is ok right now. she needs to be taught a lesson lol DONT MESS WITH KRISTINA CAPPUCCILLI;)
umm so anyways.
im single again.
but the good news is that the subject of this entry is literal
like im really going back to the beginning.
maybe stumbling over the first person you've ever had real feelings for and then going back is better because you learned stuff to get there. i dont have any regrets for any of the things ive done in the past. it all has taught me one thing.
TRUST: it shouldnt be handed out freely and you have to be positive that your giving it to people who truly deserve it.
i think this time around will be a lot different.
or so i think.
who knows though.
what i do know is that the summer is just beginning.
jersey shore is soon with my favorites.
then punta cana
and some good stuff in between;)
so all in all this entry is just to let everyone know that even if you go through something shitty like i did, it doesnt have to ruin everything. dont let it. be strong and get through it. cry if you need to. but dont waste your time on people who dont deserve it. waste it on people who are worth it. listen to your gut because its usually always right, even when you dont want it to be. you'll find out who you can trust after a few things have gone bad. the ones who have stuck by your side are the ones who always will. love is sometimes worth the pain, but make sure you're going through pain for the right person.
and most of all, dont expect things to happen. you cant possibly expect something to happen out of nothing. always live life unpredictably. usually the best things come when we dont expect them to. if you would have told me that my friend and my bf were hooking up behind my back while i was upstate for a school program and then a week later id be talking to my exboyfriend i probably would have laughed in your face.
but here i am living it.
life throws you the meanest curve balls possible
we just have to learn to anticipate the bad
hope for the good
and have friends who are good enough to help us with both♥
no other course, [no other way]; no day but today
so some of you dont know and some do
i went upstate for this girls state thing, which by the way was the best time ive had in a while. i met some awesome girls and i cant wait to see those chicks again:)
while i was down there i found out that my bf cheated on me with a girl who was supposed to be my friend.
to put it lightly, i was crushed
theres really no other way to say it
and id be a liar if i said i wasnt upset about it
the thing that upset me the most though was that he initiated us going out in the first place and then he went and hooked up with a whore.
like a really dirty whore
a whore who has a 6person train in one night
and has sex with 4 guys in 2 hours
I MEAN DIRTY.
cant emphasize that enough.
so yea i cried about it for a day or 2 and then i realized that we werent even going out that long for me to be THAT upset about it. i mean yes i do have a right but at least i found out sooner than later.
so right now i havent talked to him in like a week and i am ruining the girls life. like seriously. no beatings involved, because she deserves much worse than that. so i basically have the whole entire school on my side and everyone hates her and so life is ok right now. she needs to be taught a lesson lol DONT MESS WITH KRISTINA CAPPUCCILLI;)
umm so anyways.
im single again.
but the good news is that the subject of this entry is literal
like im really going back to the beginning.
maybe stumbling over the first person you've ever had real feelings for and then going back is better because you learned stuff to get there. i dont have any regrets for any of the things ive done in the past. it all has taught me one thing.
TRUST: it shouldnt be handed out freely and you have to be positive that your giving it to people who truly deserve it.
i think this time around will be a lot different.
or so i think.
who knows though.
what i do know is that the summer is just beginning.
jersey shore is soon with my favorites.
then punta cana
and some good stuff in between;)
so all in all this entry is just to let everyone know that even if you go through something shitty like i did, it doesnt have to ruin everything. dont let it. be strong and get through it. cry if you need to. but dont waste your time on people who dont deserve it. waste it on people who are worth it. listen to your gut because its usually always right, even when you dont want it to be. you'll find out who you can trust after a few things have gone bad. the ones who have stuck by your side are the ones who always will. love is sometimes worth the pain, but make sure you're going through pain for the right person.
and most of all, dont expect things to happen. you cant possibly expect something to happen out of nothing. always live life unpredictably. usually the best things come when we dont expect them to. if you would have told me that my friend and my bf were hooking up behind my back while i was upstate for a school program and then a week later id be talking to my exboyfriend i probably would have laughed in your face.
but here i am living it.
life throws you the meanest curve balls possible
we just have to learn to anticipate the bad
hope for the good
and have friends who are good enough to help us with both♥
no other course, [no other way]; no day but today