FiNgEr TiPs oN LadiEs HipS
well on that lovely note...today was cool. ofcourse getting up at 7am wasnt that intriguing, but school was actually more fun than i thought. about two people noticed that i dyed my hair...which was geyyy but whatever ppl are just blind. I had fun while dani tortured mee though hehe. Me and mel had fun attacking each other like always...ah i love her.Me and whitney have been gettin to be good friends and its cool considering i didnt like her at first bc of phil...but hes an asshole anyway. i feel like me and lis arent close as we used to be. i mean she lives right next door and she doesnt call me sometimes its retarted. But i duno its weird..i know i dont have to depend on anyone but i really want a gf or a bf and i hate how everytime i like someone they have someone else or just ignore me. and its not that im desperate because i am so not..its just i remember my past relationships...and i want that feeling again. I also wish my friends in brooklyn would acknoweledge my existance. Dana is really the only person i talk to anymore, i dont get it. oh yeah and ricky..but i mean everyone else acts like i disapear. and then i have to hear their petty bullshit on how they " miss me so much. i cry myself to sleep every night because your not here." well im not playin the violins no more so you all can suck my fucking cock..if i had one. lol anger is fun. just like bondage..right dani? lol ok il stop.
anyway..ive been kinda depressed lately, but i dont show it..its weird. when im around my friends im happy and all but when its me, i get so pissed off and upset. and sometimes i dont even know why or what im upset about. which is why i love crying for no reason..because even though ur not showing your feelings..you know they are there so you either just cry them out or cut them out. either way i feel a hell of a lot better. i havent cut in a while though..because i am not guna upset myself anymore and cut because of those degrating assholes in brooklyn.
im sick of being ignored..im sick of being sad, yet maybe im just sick of being me. my life isnt all peaches and cream how some think it is..such as justine. ugh..im not even gunna go there.
anyway..on a lighter note, sex is goooood lol and i want it..ahem NOW. hehe ok ok..im goin im goin yet a little quote for ya
"It's my favorite kind of day
filled with the things we fear
will find us where we sleep
and fuck us where we breathe
that wont just fade away
The way I let you fade away
I let you fade away.."
anyway..ive been kinda depressed lately, but i dont show it..its weird. when im around my friends im happy and all but when its me, i get so pissed off and upset. and sometimes i dont even know why or what im upset about. which is why i love crying for no reason..because even though ur not showing your feelings..you know they are there so you either just cry them out or cut them out. either way i feel a hell of a lot better. i havent cut in a while though..because i am not guna upset myself anymore and cut because of those degrating assholes in brooklyn.
im sick of being ignored..im sick of being sad, yet maybe im just sick of being me. my life isnt all peaches and cream how some think it is..such as justine. ugh..im not even gunna go there.
anyway..on a lighter note, sex is goooood lol and i want it..ahem NOW. hehe ok ok..im goin im goin yet a little quote for ya
"It's my favorite kind of day
filled with the things we fear
will find us where we sleep
and fuck us where we breathe
that wont just fade away
The way I let you fade away
I let you fade away.."