the b*tch went too far this time.
she made at least 2 girls cry. she yelled at my best friend for no reason. she bitched at me because she thought i was blaming her when i had been blaming myself. i am DONE trying to respect her again. she has lost EVERY OUNCE of respect that i might have had for her. she scared the freshmen girls. they don't want to try out again. i love them so much. i gave them their scarves today and i felt so good. they are like the little sisters i never had. i just want to protect them from her and make their year awesome. i think it was actually good that miss white flipped out today because finally our whole choir is in agreement that she's an unfair, prejudiced, lying, manipulative, unprofessional, horrible director. her being a bitch to us actually brought us closer. tonight was my last christmas medley ever. and i realized for the first time that i didn't want to be in encore even though my friends were there. God (and my bitchy perma-pmsing choir teacher) kept me in One Voice for a reason. i wouldn't abandon those girls for anything. most of all encore. we may suck...but it works for us. people don't assume that we're the best so we get to presently surprise everyone. we connected on a whole other level tonight. we kept looking at each other during the medley. i think we read each others minds. no one would look at miss white. we were all sad because we realized it was our last medley. we comforted each other with our singing and made miss white's verbal wounds go away at least for 30 minutes. all the girls that i'd had problems with or had gotten frustrated with i just forgot why i was upset with them and started to realize that i have been taking them for granted. i only have a half a year left with them. my two freshmen girls told me that they were going to miss me. that made my life. i wouldn't give up that feeling for anything. miss white can take me away from my friends and not put me in the better show choir and tell me that i suck at life, but there are two girls that look up to me. and i didn't have to lie to them or manipulate them into respecting me like she does. they like me for me. because of who i am, not in spite of it. i made an impact on not one, but two girls. i want them to be proud of me. i want to show them how you can survive choir even when your teacher hates you and still have a good time and make friends. i don't want to leave them. there's so much more that i wish i could help them with. i just want to snap my fingers and give them the best show choir year of their life. but i don't have time to. suddenly college isn't looking so great.